Glad i have you

2009-10-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

IDIOT i treat u as a friend and there u go say that i got something going on with your BF holy shit la... UR bf is not my type true need i dont really like typical malay guy... or shall i say typical MAT! who claim himself not matrep... damn shitos... and get this fact right i dont date my friend bf... eventhough we know just 2mths or my clique bf... please la.. i got alife... and MY BF IS WAY BETTER THAN YOURS.... rather den doing nothing hoping for the gf money hell he wll be.... LOOK BABE get this right okie.... IF U WERE TO ASK ME HAH! u get the wrong person.. u make me snap.. UR Relationship problem dont blame people... find the mistake between you guys.

2009-09-11T20:49:00.004+08:00

After so long not updating this blog im kinda missing my blogging life the blogmates and many more.... I have yet to live in the cyberworld eversince i start working full time but now i wont care much... And futhermore the current job is a stepping stone for me to move on....
Btw love life still remain the same eventhough there up and down this is what relationship is... Turning 24 in couple of months which is like a new record for me.. :) but den i still gotta stay strong still alot of things gotta learn...

At first light I positioned my easel,
filled my palette and gathered my brushes
Attempting to capture the sunrise
obscuring my view, was simply you.

Soon I was looking at an abstract.
Vibrant colors that swirled and peaked.
Sighing in frustration,
what did it mean?

Then I realized I had created
a portraiture of my love for you.

Pastels soft as a summer night,
subtle hues of tender emotion,
softest blues, creams and liquid greens,
sensual ivory and lavenders of longing.

Light red and tangerine jumped from the canvas
explosions of sexual intoxication and creativity
Purple playing on the magic of romance
tickled with white, symbol of loves purity
No words could express what my colors revealed
I love you.......

2009-05-02T22:54:00.001+08:00

Happy 1 year 4month love!

I never thought that I would know a love like this.
Until I found you and finally could see,
And I never thought that my soul would be so moved
Until you found me.
My heart tells me there is a new direction now,
My soul has the same message too,
And I understand, no matter what path I travel,
It will always lead me to you.
So now I am here.
And as I look into your eyes.
I see us walking in stride,
Hand in hand,
Side by side.
I stop and hold you and feel our hearts beat as one.
The wind blows your hair, but we are not done,
All the good and the bad has still brought us to be

Happy 16th months hubby.
Thru the pain we share
thru the joy we laugh
nothing else worth more then you loving care
You held me like there is no tomorrow
You showered me with all love care and concern
like im the only princess in the planet
You showed me what is right and wrong
you protect me from the scary night to the harm i might conclude
you brought me to the places i never been before
and you are always there when i need someone to held or cry too...
The bundles of joyous love that you gave i can never forgot or forgo
I love you N.Daniel
Cause your are the light of my heart.

2009-04-02T02:11:00.000+08:00

you're everything to me baby
The sparkle in my eye
Whenever we're together
I feel like I can fly
You're my hero sweet pet
The man of my dreams
I wouldn't trade you for anything
Not by any means
I'm so grateful that I found you
Simply a wish come true
You're the only one for me baby
I'm so in love with you
Everyday I fall in love
Just like it was the first time
I'm not sharing you with anyone
You'll always be all mine
I'm spinning in circles baby
I'm just all about you
With how you hold my hand
And all your soft kisses too
You're amazing and wonderful
I'm as happy as can be
Baby you totally light my fire
You're everything to me

Happy 15th monthsary Hubby!

2009-02-28T00:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARY HUBBY LOVE!

Your love make me stronger And it have already built a tiny castle in me HUbbby love this 14 is make me learn alot I mean real alot. Thank you for being with up till today Thru the thick and thinn that we face I love you each and everyday even more. I hope we keep this thru eternity :)

2009-02-14T02:57:00.005+08:00

A gentle hand against my cheek
lingers soft through out the night
though you're gone, you're always near
when a lonely mind takes flight.

Love wakes the sleeping soul
A yearning heart still cries
Lying safely in your arms
sensuality' sighs

Darkness hides the aching heart
Reaching into distant time
A pillow of pure fantasy
Where life at last is always kind

All my wishes, all my dreams
So sweetly realized
In true bliss, and happiness
When I close my eyes

2009-02-14T02:57:00.003+08:00

2009-02-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

is it a time to talk
or is it a time to wait
this is a time for one source
by killing my own believe

when love is all that i know
love is faithless
you and i
were meant to be
wanting that i believe

2009-01-29T22:56:00.001+08:00

Happy 13th anniversary hubby.
Yes this year will celebrate with a different twist of life.
No more love writing cards but leading just like normal couples do..
Yes we been thru shit this month and days before the 13th monthsary.
Damn i have learnt alot... yes i noe i was at fault and i shall not repeat some thing..
Btw i love u with all my heart and no one can replace the patience the kindness and the turnover u did..
Yes sometimes i went overboard and u were just easy on it...
Thats why i love u so much.. even so u dont like the idea of me working...
But i really hope on march things works out :)

Sky of decaying burnt rust,
Contemplation to the night.
Built upon unwanted trust,
Is it possible this is right?

Love gets so complicated,
Perhaps it only takes a day.
Life is often too overrated,
Hand in hand let us runaway.

The star will trace our hearts,
Exposing to the world our love.
Our kiss is where the story starts,
The perfect couple they'll think of.

Do you honestly,
truly believe in
"Love at first sight?"

Well. I don't know
if I would say
that I personally do.

I do however believe
in falling in love,
falling for Mr. Right.

Or sometimes even,
Mr. Wrong, people
make mistakes everyday,

I've made many of
those mistakes, I've
fallen for Mr. Wrong.

But I do believe,
I've found Mr. Right.
I've fallen for you.

My Mr. Right,
so perfectly imperfect,
this wonderful man is,

He is you, my love,
with all of my heart,
I will love you, Norman Daniel.

2009-01-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

First Anniversary Hubbylove - ElvryaDaniel

Happy anniversary love!

Btw readers Stay tune for more pic and update :)

2008-12-14T10:22:00.002+08:00

approx. 15 more day to our very first.. OMG im super excited.. I never feel this excited before.. :) there alot of thing that i have done and plann.. I do not know la abt his side.. but B make sure romantic to the max okie..

Hmmm since my bf is on duty on 27.. hunniher.. you are booked the whole day okie... from morning as early as 10 to 8pm at night den i shall send you home.. :) aww.. wad a gf am i haha..
Btw yesh this 2 person is is my very very very important person in my life.. if one of them gone missing i will be panic to the max... that include my gfs too :)

Btw yeah i have a few list to do... grr.. okie chiao

and this 17 i have a date with GF skarlet, GF idahchix and GF eraw :)

2008-12-11T03:49:00.001+08:00

Single rose in a crystal vase
Lonely dewdrop tears glisten
Vibrant colors fade to pale

No longer kissed by the sun
Clouds blanket her world
Petals droop in sadness

Love; the waters of life
Evaporated from her world
Thirsting, she slowly dies

Drops of life touch her face
Drinking in the nourishment
Sweet taste of his pure love

Passion, love and tenderness
Now fill her vacant failing heart
Crystal vase now occupied by two

MY world becomes a garden
surrounded by brooks and streams
lily's dance in the field
as if stolen from Monet's dreams

rainbows fill the skies
to display the leprechauns gold
thee God's bow in contentment
of a union to behold

raindrops become tears of joy
while thy clouds play hide and seek
majestic mountains sway
smiling from peak to peak

birds sing songs of Solomon
that echo throughout the land
for when you say "I love you"
the whole world becomes a band.....

2008-12-11T03:23:00.002+08:00

Its been weeks i last update things here.. i bet hubbylove miss reading them :)
Days without him my night feel so empty.. These few days we kept teasing each other like no other better things to do.. Btw over this week there alot of thing to be done and alot of wedding and engagement invatation.. wahh best... I want it too la.. seeing lovebird going up the dais with those pretty dresses and all wow... :) btw CONGRATS to Insyirah Ilyana as soon to be a moomehhh.. :) I want to see cute chubby babies of yours... Btw she is my god cousin... weee.. i love love them so much and i miss them too :)

Btw i was looking thru my old pictures and was thinking how my life full of enjoyment.. While now im bored easily even to go out to same old places.. Maybe cause i start to early to hit to town to clubs drinking and even sleepovers... Oh ya start counting to new year eve as it hit my 1 year :) and new year resolution is to be out soon.. and bestie hunniher bday is super soon... i guess things will be solve soon :)

2008-11-30T04:54:00.002+08:00

I wasnt behaving like what im suppose too.
I overright you in alot of ways and now i regretted them all.
I wasn't being myself the past days.
I ended up hurting you with those action and words.
Now i'm wondering if you would accept my apology.
What even worst the night of the monthsary we were quarreling.
How cruel i could be and the best part my sickness fall on the wrong time.
Neither would i know when im gonna fall sick as my will always get them from my sister.
But i know i was wrong. I know that the person who always care and wake up as early as 4 just to grab my inhaler and medication was you.
I was being such a brat. Being so disrespectful to you.
Oh gosh. i have realise that this was a really big mistake that i do.
I really hope you will forgive me.
If any point of time you are reading this.
Hubbylove, i love you so much eventhough things had happen... Now matter how strict you are with me but i know you want the me in me. Yes i realise it how much i appreciate all of you had scarified for me. I was cruel to you i was not a good girlfriend to you.. But the most important thing that i want you to know is that i will always loves you and never want to you to leave myside.... i alway need you as my strength, my pillar and my all... I love you so much hubby... I really dont want to lose in my life....

ILY! so muchhhhh.......

its already past 5am and im still tearing up writing this cause i noe that this was my mistake and my fault.... im really SORRY!....

2008-11-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 11th Month B.

2008-11-23T22:47:00.002+08:00

Been ages i last update this blog of mine.
Life have been going thru alot. and recently i just chopped my hair back to super short.
eventhough its a shocking to hubbylove. But i like cause this is me.. :)
But yeah im so gonna do something to the fringe like highlight or something or dye the whole hair a bright colour... :)
hmm practically i miss my life with him.. But as u can see he is always busy working... If he were to come home he already shag and tired.. aww.. pity him.. but yeah soon i will be pretty with work at starbucks and events.. but i really wish i dont work during the first anniversary there alot of surprises that i plan for him :) i really dont noe where or what to do on that very day.. as our anniversary is a peak season and holiday... lol but im sure this will be a memorable for him.. There will still be that sweet card that i always write and make for him but this is even more :)

hey here is my new look

2008-11-13T20:03:00.001+08:00

I wont change abit for you after i start working.
I will still be the same girl you know 11mths ago.
Neither i would change the love for you.
You will always be my love.
ILY.!
and i always need you here with me.

2008-11-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

Okie enough with the fun time.. lol.. so yeah..
I have plans and i already planned it..
So final decission
I will pursue my dreams as a pastries chef... in ite.. i dont care im in to late.. i will work part time back like i used to do.. In starbucks.. i dont care if the pay starts low but still if i work long hours i always earn more so yea.. and also i will get permission from hubbylove to work for catering if there is an event every now and then.. so at least i still do have my pocket money... but yeah.. on top of that if i do have an extra i would want to take that private dip.. yes may sound kinda too much but im going thru this alone... So here come the old nazria back.. who learn to stand on her own feet... i will work back in Valley point.. If possible :)

2008-11-06T10:25:00.004+08:00

Okie people let me show u How small.. .hmm not small how thin my bf used to be before he become big :P

SOrry hubbylove but i find when u were tiny u are super cute and adorable la.. lol

I fallen for you not cause of your look.. but your heart sweetiepie.. Nothing is to be compared to ur heart my love.. i love you always..

2008-10-29T16:45:00.002+08:00

Happy 10th monthsary to you hubbylove...

Thanks for all your patience and endurance with me :)
But most important is that thank you for making me someone special both in ur life and heart.
And not forgetting your endless love that you have always given me. :D
That why i have always and always love you :D

When your arms are securly around me,
really, there's no other place i'd rather be.
your eyes so loving and caring when you look into mine, A shiver is sent right to my spine.
Like air, thoughts of you are buzzing around my head, They stay there from early in the morning till bed.

A long time ago I prayed to be wanted,
For happiness and someone to love me,
Not for a abusive one like the one before,
But for someone who truly could see.

I am not a girl to take for granted,
Not to be hurt in any way at all,
I am full of love, happiness, and hope,
But someone would see after all.

You took me into your arms,
And held me close to your heart,
Although that was a long time ago,
I canâ��t imagine being apart.

Although sometimes we argue,
And unfortunately happen to fight,
No matter what happens,
I will continue to love you every night.

Some moments we take for granted,
And some hoping would never end,
No matter what we go through in life,
Together we will always stand.

Hand and hand we will always be,
I donâ��t ever want to part,
Although we are not always together,
I am thinking of you in my heart.

You are the best person I have ever met,
And I love everything about you,
I would never want another,
I am deeply in love with you.

I am sorry for times I have a short temper,
And the annoying moments I can embrace,
But I always want to be holding you,
And kissing your gorgeous face.

So baby, always keep in mind,
Never would I want us to part,
I will always love you no matter what,
And be with you through mind, love, and heart.

I have always love u fully hubbylove :D

2008-10-27T00:52:00.005+08:00

Hubby thank for the day..eventhough it wasnt complete and ur planned dint turn out that wad u planned but im happy and i feel so special hehe.
Like i said to you i will accept anything as long as it come from your heart :)
and like i said to you ur love is enough to be my gifts.. :D
Thanks you and my hunniher whom made my day special :D

2008-10-25T00:55:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me :)
Im finally getting older without realising

Thank god this year my birthday i could spend with love.
As i shall not ranked up the past.
I'm blessed to him him around me.
That is the gift that i could always ask for.
Im proud to have bf like u hubbylove
Thank you so much.

And to my bestie Thank you to you too for all this years since i was 10 u never forget and always making me surprise... Eventhough shit and quarrel always happen to us... but yeah i love you too...

And to my gfs...
I love you both too

Let stay tune for later on the day :D

2008-10-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

Hubbylove would you take me to hortpark to watch that beautiful sunset
Take me to henderson waves to get the glimps of the town...
And take me for romantic dinner ;D
hahaha rya have many wish list hehe

2008-10-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

W300 13.1megapixel
This would be enough rather then those big one the features is the same wow.. i like

Oh yes i would love to own one of this.. SO hint hint for bday gifts.. ahhahah I WISH! i could get this...

OR shoesss or bag tat im craving for haha..
Mayb lets say Jimmy choo shoes , LV bags or gucci shoes or coach bags.. haha dream on la Rya... as if like u would get them hahaha...

2008-10-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Never want to be left alone by myself.
Having you here with me have always lighten me up.
Glad that with you around i feel safe and secure.
There always be someone who is willing to listen to my nonsense
Always understand me better then i do.
Never come across my mind that you wasnt good enough me.
You always be enough.
I miss you each every moment my dear.
I love you in every single way sweetheart.
Cause in my heart there you and no one can replace your place.

Okie hmm lately things are turn out the way that i expected.. and yes i need a proper job terribly... damn... Working as event cater is always never easy but trust me i love that job.. but i got to understand both family wanting and stuff.. sighh... ANd lovely gfs we go out soon yeah

2008-10-14T18:19:00.002+08:00

Beautiful love..
I love him to he max...
No matter how bad u had an arguement i will always run back to him and hug him tightly...
Im blinded by all his love.. As im as crazy as ever... I will do things without things and i always want it to be in my way.. But no matter what i've always been listening to him.. :D
Im so happy and joyful as my life with him is back on track as pernormal.... But this time i really need to help him in alot of ways... Hopefully i could and manage to help him...

My life is full of wonders cause of him...
May our dreams and wished come true...

Love hubbylove :)

2008-10-14T08:15:00.003+08:00

Going raya with the cliques was fun... Weee after so long yeah we had alot of fun together... This year we didnt go public anymore.. We took our own ride which is Riding bike.. Since the BFs have the bikes so yeahhh hehe.. so There is a total of 6bike on the road.. yeah we took pic while riding and all i was scared enough as i dont have a steady hand lol.. so ina and fyza do the job.. :) practically eventhough it was a lil houses but we manage to catch up and spend times together...
Hmm let the pictures says..

On top of that this year is the first hari raya with my hubbylove.. yes we planned to wear black and white.. in the oppsite ways.. so yeah.. But first raya with him was fun and excellent.. i really had a blissful time with him.. :) eventhough our morning turn slightly sour.. but by noon everything is back to normal... Our misunderstand somehow or rather is been answered and explained by both party... and yesh i will stop all my nonsense... Sighh... too bad that i got leave all my sports and passion aside.. just for my love.. :)

tats all peeps.. good morning :)

2008-10-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

Realized in my loneliness
After a far distant
Your light of love guide me
Back into your embracing arms
Thank you love for everything
You gave that chance again
Never to repeat again
All my mistakes that has hurt you
Without you there’s no meaning
Incapable to stand again

2008-10-10T17:42:00.002+08:00

Im trying my best to lose weight again.. yesh now every morning i went for a jog.. as early as 5.30am i would run few kilometer.. yes i tend to stop and walk as i need to built my stamina back.. i was thinking even to go back to silat.. No doubt that i miss it alot.. so yea.. eventhough hubbylove doesnt like it.. but he is always busy with his own things and have been neglected me for the past weeks... sigghh... I really do miss those time when we always spend our days together... I would even cry on his shoulder.. but now.. to cry on a shoulder is even harder den i would imagine.. :(... I just want to go back to trainings.. I could go back to my dance school would be better.. dance, silat and keep up with my lifestyle.. that what is always been aiming for.... But i also want his presence if i have the comps and shows... but trust me he cant make it if i have them la.. :(

2008-10-08T09:15:00.001+08:00

hey, ohh, let me tell you no.
oh baby.
trying to decide, trying to decide if i, really wanna go out tonight.
i never use to go out without you, i'm not sure i remember how to.
i'm gonna be late gonna be late but, all my girls gonna have to wait cause, i don't know if i like my outfit.
i tried everything in my closet.

nothing feels right when i'm not with you, sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when i'm missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

hey, gotta be strong gotta be strong but i'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
i thought maybe i'd do some shopping, but i didn't get past the door and, now i don't know now i don't know if i'm, ever really gonna let you go and i, couldnt even leave my appartment.
i'm stripped down torn up about it.

trying to decide, trying to decide if i, really wanna go out tonight.
i couldn't even leave my appartment, i'm stripped down torn up about it.

nothing feels right when i'm not with you, sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when i'm missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay.

hey hey, nothing feels right when i'm not with you.
sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when i'm mising you.
ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
in nothing but your t-shirt on(2x)

2008-10-08T09:07:00.002+08:00

I miss my hubbylove~
My very own mr nougat
Or shall i say my MR cranky...
I miss ur presence at home i miss you i need you and i love you.........

2008-10-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

Amah, bibik baby and aniis

Omah and anis

Momma is having teh tarik slurrrpp

Lovely cousins

We are all as 1.. :)

The mazyadi's and i belong to mr malik's lol

2008-10-03T02:17:00.003+08:00

the older and the young 1

vain pot cousin

Seha and Neil

coussinnzzz

welcome the men

Ola.

LtoR:uncle yus, dad, haikal, abg charlie, abg yusop,abg and adiq

LtoR:Kak caca,kak atie,obek ipah,maz and mom

LIL kiddos

With additional anis

Girls club :)

EMILY TAKING SHOWERR :) QUACK!!!!

AT gramm place

Cranky lil emily

Obek ayah,ayah and emily(in Black are my twinz bros)

My twin uncle with emily

Family. Mind my sis in law camera shy.

my fav aunt family excluded that lil emily

Mix edition...

Twins,gramms and lil emily

abg giving gramms red packet.

Cousins with lil anaqi shafie

TU!

Irratating SIs

3 dara

mom birthday

Cuz

2008-10-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

Weee hari raya this year was a blast for family.. all dad side gather over at my place.. :) including Ilya and Turaiyah.. nice babe :)
Okie as usual first thing in the morning we always waited for adiq, kak yana and nipote emily to come first den head to my uncle place as gramm is over there.. :) so yeah... so after we ate all and stuff we head home and get ready for the housewarming kinda cum mom birthday... :) cousin and all was great i really had my time with them talk chatted joke wow.. like wad i used to have back in tok and mak nenek place.. :) It was also mom birthday so yeah.. :) cutting cakes and all.. But sadly hubbylove cant make it as he was sick yesterday.. and was having high fever.. and yarr... he was admitted to the hospital at the outpatient.. but yet he still gotta go brunei.. on 2nd oct.. so saddd... i did cry like mad yesterday as really misses him alot.. :).... so yar.. btw also today he came over in the morning and meet me up.. i was still down and i teared most of the time... kinda touching.. but yeah we managed to get a nap together.... Afterwhich he complaint that he was hungry so we get mac for breakfast :) and as usual i will always give them tips :) hmm its been almost 24hours since he left.. hope he is doin okie.. just now umi texted me asking if anyone were looking for him.. and yeah we managed to talk alil.. i seldom talk to her.. But yeah i still gotta update my whereabout to hubbylove so they know where am i.. cant wait for him to come home on sat.... btw i will upload the pics.. :)

2008-09-29T01:15:00.002+08:00

Love
Shining peacefully
Reigning gracefully
Paths combined harmoniously
Absolute commitment
Supreme bliss
Divine emotions
Everlasting happiness

*Reflect*

Happiness everlasting
Emotions divine
Bliss supreme
Commitment absolute
Harmoniously combined paths
Gracefully reigning
Peacefully shining
Love you hubbylove...

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is caring
Whos friendly
And whos a true friend

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is a true friend
One who is there to listen
Who respects you for you
And whos a faithful boyfriend

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is an amazing boyfriend
One who will do anything just to see your beautiful smile
Who will make you laugh until your stomach hurts and cant breath
And who has a heart full of love for the girl in his heart

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
Nor just a friend
Or an amazing boyfriend
But instead
I see all three

I Love You hubby!

HAPPY 9th Monthsary B!

Eventhough you are not here with me but that doesnt mean i dont remember the day today.. Knowing you are totally busy, you have always shower with full love.... Today marked the 9 mth with you and i never regret every moment with you.. Yes, lately misunderstanding and problem may occur but we have always been fixing it and all... Soon gonna be Raya and i cant wait to seek forgiveness from you and the family and friends.... You have been such a great boy to me getting whatever i need eventhough i gotta wait.. but still you will ended up getting them for me.. :) I you always say there is no reason why we love each other.. Love in gradually come by itself and a strong communication is always important... Your love have been always enough for me.. But i guess... all i need more is ur presence and attention... I totallly love you hubbylove~ please to take those away for a moment even...

ouh ya on the night of raya i gonna send some food over to his place as mom order somethings for them... :)

2008-09-25T18:45:00.002+08:00

This Becomes So Hard
To Me You'll Be Surprised
Your Back To The Real Me
No Jugde Me If Your Right
Cause When I Dance With You
I Will Speak The Truth
Now You Make Me Lose

i took this from a song new classic from another cinderella story :)
and the song remind how i met him.. from dance to nature of love and what we have been thru.. And now he wants me to chase after my dreams.. eventhough dancing my passion but baking is an art of life :)
Hubby have been working late lately.. damn i miss the moment with him

2008-09-24T01:59:00.002+08:00

Goshh hubby love is on duty again.. arghhh
sigh...
Btw lately i been shopping non stop.. and yeah.. soon me and mom is gonna hunt for my shoes and bags for lebaran haha.. lol...
And of course searching for the 2 boys baju kurung is not easy indeed... sighh.. especially when goin there with mom and dad.. as they are very choose about the material and all... sighh.. biler la pacarku and abgku berbaju baru hehe... lol..
So today i break-fast all alone at home while mom and dad have some errand to run.. soobx...
Ouh ya not mentioning yesterday when i went to gelyang with mom,dad and bro... i bought new baju kebaya again haha.. lol and its black again.. wahh in my closet its full of black baju kebaya.. i have 4 of them now.. damn.. im so gonna dead.. haha.. and yes mom bough somthing in white hehe.. so yeah finally.. but i need my room renovation.. when is it gonna be done mom dad.. sigh.. but this year is a memorable year as everyone is coming over here in the noon.. as its mom birthday.. so yeah.. first day of raya wad we planned visit granny over at uncle place den all gonna come over here.. and yes that include you hubby... please do come ayte.. :) btw also mom is gonna cook a feast.. like kerutup, sambal goreng, ayam kurma, tulang and many more weeee... wahh busy la me like that in the kitchen like a mad girl... first day full of thing.. but 2nd till 4th and so it will silence... as mom and dad is flying again and hubbylove gotta go to brunei.. sigghh
so i hope things will keep me busy here... afterwhich bro and sis is also busy working....
But this year me,sisters and the bros is gonna be all in the same colour like years years ago... all in BLACK while mom and dad will be in Peach in colour and yes this year lil nipote EMILY is joining haha.. btw i cant wait for the duit raya.. haha im not working and im still a student okie.. hahaha.. 2 more years den i gotta start giving hahaha.... but most important is seeking forgiveness with all of them and hoping to meet the cousins and all and hope mom family that is wrecked will be fixed... as people always said that during hari raya ppl tend to realise their mistake... :)
But yeah and i hope that i could meet the gfs and bfs so we can all jln raya... :)

btw flore and shie.. let go tanning again pleaseeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-22T01:09:00.003+08:00

Wondering why i have mixed emotion..
Felt like crying, felt lost, felt sad, felt disappointed, felt hopeless, felt confuse.. i do not know...
Arghh.. maybe due to the yesterday incident?
Whatever fcuk it is.. i wish this could settle pretty soon... i cant go on like this.. Hiding every single things and trying my best to put on a smile with my friends and hubby... damn it... i really hate this kinda feelings. Even worst it ended up with a sleepless night.. i did not sleep till 6am in the morning and i gotta wake up as early as 10 to do the house chores before leaving.. so yeah.. went to meet Flore and Shieling for tanning... Spending the time with them make me forget about what had happen for awhile.. but after which i tend to think abt it again... Feeling to drink also have.. but i ended up smoking non stop till both of them make so much noise.. yeah girls i only smoke that much when im caught in situation... Sorry ladies.. but overall we talked alot.. we tanned till we fell asleep under the sun.. and my dear flore u are pretty tanned already... okie... haha shie.. shall we go tann till we totally tanned? hehe.. okok i shall upload all the photo till flore send it all.. but here are lil of it.. :)
Sooner im looking forward to go out with my 2 pri sch buddies.. which is debbie and shima ;)

HAVING THE BEN AND JERRY ICE CREAM YUMMY

THREESOM

See she is much much more tanner den me.. arghh

2008-09-21T00:47:00.003+08:00

Super paranoid girl i am..
yes.. which girl is not paranoid if the love one never call at all.. and even worst saying that he/she is coming home at this this hours....
Damn it.. im scared as i ever encounter such things and something bad happen.. which i dun ever want to hear... darn it...
Hmmm
btw hubbylove love is over at station again..
darn i miss him..
yeah even just bloody 2days but still im so used to have him around me..
Yes i love him totally.. till i dont want him to be out of my sight...
Nothing could be the same without him...
eventhough the up and down...
but still the next day when we wake up everythings seem a new day...
that is wad we are..
Loving him and recieving his love is already enough to put up a smile on my face...

Yearning to be with you more each day,
as time passes, the only person I want is you.
Wanting to feel your soft touch on my skin-
the warmth of your body against mine...
gorgeous eyes gazing deeply into our future.

Butterflies overwhelm me within as they-
make my heart flutter amidst every beat.
Those sugar-coated words that sound so sweet-
when you say them to me; makes me want to melt.
The thoughts of you just keep continuing.

I love you, slips from lips that have yet to be touched-
by the one she believes is her true soul mate; her love.
My lips are becoming dry, as they miss you terribly.
Eagerly awaiting your sweet kiss to make them wet.
Nothing will ever change this dream of being with you.

Hold me tightly in your arms, protect me forever.
I find myself falling harder for you, will you catch me?
You mean something to me that nobody has before-
I keep searching for those words that will explain...
but your unforgettable presence has me distracted.

Stay with me forever, hold me tight, never release me.
Keep me close, as I never intend to let you leave.
There's one thing that I know for certain however,
and that is...that you had me at hello.

2008-09-17T23:38:00.005+08:00

Artist:Howie Day
Title: Collide

Collide - Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

2008-09-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

Shall i just switch the light off?
Shall i just keep myself in silent...?
Deciding.........

2008-09-16T01:20:00.002+08:00

Those smile
Those tears
Those joy
Those sorrow
Those laughters
We been thru alot up and down
Arguement and happiness
Hardship and enjoyable life..
all that we been thru...
and yet soon we gonna hit that 9...
and yes... that 9...
i will be looking forward to the 12,13......20....30....40...55... and so and soo...
eventhough i have not been working.. but i just wish that all while i have given u wad i can...
yesh i noe i still owe u a birthday gift.. be patient ayte hubbylove...
Trust me the gift which u expect will be out soon :)
I noe it super belate and totaally gonna be basih....
but i really hope to get a job soonn damn it so hard to get 1.... :(

2008-09-14T14:22:00.001+08:00

V/s 1

Termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
tak mampu ku melupakan
walau kian kehilangan

v/s 2

kerna ku terlalu ingin kan
untukmu riang berkekalan
rela ku berlalu
walau mungkin tak termampu

v/s 3

Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti
tak ingin saling di lukai
kedaifan ini
menjadi penghalang sanubari

c/o

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin akan ku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

bdge

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

v/s 4
termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
moga kau mengerti
bila nadi ku terhenti

2008-09-07T00:24:00.003+08:00

Opps been awk i last upadate... gosshhhh
Firstly HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY....

The 2nd day of puase i left bf all alone in SG while i went KL with mom n dad for 2d3n trip... damn i miss him like hell... i heard stories about him here.... okie this is the first and last im gonna heard all this... the next time.. i really gonna explode... Eventhough i can be blinded by love but dun ever test the water in me.. i can be those soft hearted girl but i can be as mean as a cruel step mother... trust me u do not want to see that side of me... cause u will regret... I trust u fully... and i dont want you them them away from me.. the next time im gonna have a trip im gonna dragg u along.. No stories no nothing... Its not that i want to accuse anyone in this.. sigghhhh... argghh.. damn it la... enough og this crapp...

Btw yesterday i met hubbylove over at cineleisure as yea it my treat to treat him over at pastamania... :) sluurrppp i love my seafood tomato pasta... :) hmm after which we were hunting for some tops but cant get any... we were searching for topshop and topman over at orchard but could not get any of it... damn.. but in the end we rode all the way to bugis to buy 4topman top and my topshop tank top... lol... i bought 3 topman xs for my lovely spoilt bratt sis and 1 topman m for hubbylove and my tank top ;)... hmm happy.. haha spend momma money like water.. haha... hmmm den otw back home saw hid.. my pri sch mate asking me if i'm working... haha den i say no im not workin.. become taitai at home hahha.... taitai eh.. duduk rumah tak tau diam taitai giler arhh hahha... hmm den we rode to lau pa sat as bf is craving for bbq wings while im i wanted to go newton to eat stringray... but in the end we were at lau pa sat eating them.. okie la the stringray but not llike wad i expected.... sigghhh.. hmmm but overall day with him was great... :)

2008-08-30T01:54:00.002+08:00

Happy 8th monsary hubbylove~

There the hardship that we been thru.. We are still standing strong... :)
Eventhough i have not been that pretty much good gf.. have been over possive on certain but you made me believe in you.. which i know that all this while there will be no lies in us.... :)

These wounds of a broken heart are slowly healing-
each day the pain decreases; the blood quits oozing.
Ability to love again and see the light feels amazing-
the sad thoughts that once overpowered my decisions-
are quickly fading away; optimism is becoming visible.

It seems not too long ago I was hurting-
never believed I'd overcome this and move on.
I'm slowly realizing, things can be overcame-
time just has to pass so that things can happen.
I'm ready to love again, and give it another chance.

Yearning to be with another soul whom I admire-
desiring their touch and lips against mine softly.
Oh, how I want nothing more than to be with him-
so that he can fix up the wounds of my broken heart.
Give me your love; I'll give you the same in return.

Desperately awaiting that day that I fall for you-
everything to fit into place, and be the way I expected.
Time is passing before our eyes, why not act upon it.
Wash away all the stress I've encountered in my past-
make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.
Show me what love is like, tell me you love me.
You'll be mine, then I'll be yours. Love me forever.

I love you hubbylove and you will be always remain as what it is... :)

2008-08-26T13:19:00.001+08:00

Shall i be the Personal Assistant of fakhrin band... helping them in all the paperwork since they are willing to pay.. hehe.. hmm but is hubby okie with it? im really looking forward to this kinda job.. the task is not that much but it just time management that is important handling 3 person and get their ass to gig jam and yada3 is not easy u noe.. i must know all of their schedule how cool is that haha... lol... okok.. fakhrin will elaborate more to me later at night.. hmm hopefully hubby is okie with this.. :)

practically lately things have been working out good with hubbylove.. :)

2008-08-24T16:59:00.002+08:00

Boring sunday for me..
Nothing to do.. noone to go out with.. Usually my lil nipotē Emily will be here at home first thing in the morning... But sadly today she is not here as my brother is kinda tired so they are now at home resting.... How sad that could be.. usually that lil girl will just make my day.. Every morning i will start hearing her laughing while my parent is talking or teasing her.. Or at most she cried cause she is hungry and as usual i will feed her and make her milk and yada3.... As for bf today is the daddy's side weddings affair.. so yeah he probably busy there.. Eventhough we have major arugement yesterday but he still do care about me all the time... Eventhough when im sick all i need was his full attention to me.. But now i got to learn to be on my own... Yes im a bad gf i can say... Its sweet of him to wake up as early as 8 to buy me milk and bread but yet i didnt eat the bread.. Guess i'm really stubborn arent i... hmm so at 8plus im still complanning about the gastric pain... so he decided to call macd for me.. and surprisingly i cant finish my macmuffins how bad is that.. I ate like only 2/3 of the muffin and the rest i gave to him including the hashbrown.. i cant gobble all.. damn guess the old habit of me came back.. which is very very bad... It could lead me to appendix as the last time the doctor have warn me that i had a minor appendix and suppose to avoid it from making it worst... Yes, hubby didnt know about this... If he would ever know about this im surely be dead as he will get mad at me.. okie okie.. lets put all aside..

To hubbylove, i know i was such an arse to you yesterday i wasnt being myself and being that understanding gf that you used to know... Its my bad and im really sorry about yesterday... Guess i have moodswing when im sick.... but im glad that you have been always here for me.. eventhough we could spend the time like other couple do....

Hmm 5 more days will be the 8th monthsary with him.. damn time is real fast... adn i really have to change and wake to the world which is opened.. sadly im still not working so i do not know wad to make or get for him.... I really desprately need a job... sigh..

2008-08-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

Nothing that i could wish for
A perfect simple life all i want it to be grant
Not more that just love which i would want
But joy and laughter of the love ones that will make me shine
Hereby i sitting everysingle day updating post
Never reveal the true feelings in me
Its just me or it that could be said
Snuggles with tears to sleep
Wanting the broken parts to be fix
Waiting for him to come home
And those precious hours that i have to spend wisely
Its not that i'm whinning but that what i felt in me
Sometimes i need to be selfish i guess
Nothing more which i ask for just want to spend like the other couples,.
I know what you doing is all for me
But i just need some days that i could spend wth you.

2008-08-19T22:59:00.003+08:00

I never show to you how much i really do love you.. i never show u how much i cared... but deep inside me im all yours hubbylove... Not a single bit i will take my eyes off you.. without realising its already coming to 8mth.. damn time flies so fast.. its as though i met u only a mth ago... thru the tears, joy, laughter and all.. i never regret to have you apart of my life as you always been a joy and wonderful gift to me.. eversince the day one i really enjoy everysingle bit of you... enough u alone to make my day... But all of it is like a dream come true.. my dream man is already here with me... im looking forward to the 1 year which officially falls on the new year.. and i want to show them who have been looking down on us that we made it.. I never choose a person if they have ride or money.. its matter how u would take care of me and protect me all this while... knowing that i have my man to protect me all this awhile... and yeahh i really do love him... hmm.. practically i miss all my mates.. gosh been so long last we wnt out together.. grr.. hope hope to meet them soon...

to hubbylove.. i love you.. and not a sec it stop.. :D

2008-08-18T02:57:00.002+08:00

Hmm weekend was great.. again i attended cousin wedding sat and sun.. haha.. Too many weddings that have to be attended lol... when is my turn haha.. gosh.. so mentel.. okok.. practically weekend was spend with my family.... and yeah sadly this time hubbylove have to go to work with no time off or leave... hmm... lets recap apart from sat and sun...

On friday went to meet idah as she have interview.. den after which we went to the poly as i have massive period cramps and asthma.. how sweet she is.. den after which hubbylove called and talk to idah.. yeshh... he is very caring even when he cant make it.. he make sure the person who send me have to really take care of me.. thnks to idah and sweet of her.. hehe.. but when we go the poly was closed for lunch break and gotta return at 1.30 so we eat at tea tarik to have our branch... den after lunch we headed back to the polyclinic.. and yes.. while waiting for the doctor.. i have been surprise by hubbylove he drop by just to accompany me to see the doc.. hehe as usual i dun really talk much to the doctor since i was young hehe... hmmm okok.. den he gotta rush home as to help kak sita for his niece birthday Syafiqah.... so me and idah headed home... :D
practically my weekdays doesnt really spend that much arh.. so usual i will spend time at home just to search for jobs...
btw the weddings pic from cuz wedd will be up soonn... :D

2008-08-14T15:43:00.007+08:00

The partners in crime :D

Me mom and lil titbits :D

THE 080808 COUPLE :D

So gorgeous in pink :D

The antaran to the guys side

Bloopers hehe

The arabic style

Cousin in law, Aunties and cousin :D

The arrival of abg Yazid

Nikah time

She approves :D

The sealed Bliss

Me dad and the couple

Lil boy with the brides

cutting the day time :D

2008-08-13T03:23:00.001+08:00

GEMINI MAN

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high
forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a
very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and
very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start
talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special
talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic.
He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call
"Hyperactive".

He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if
he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on
paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent
a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean.
He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love
him.

He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts
he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make
sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He
get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so
soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.

If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you
will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is
a duty, or is it because he wants to?

He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see
a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other
Zodiac.

He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could
hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and
necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always
find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he
wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He
can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a
real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.

He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy
about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate
satisfaction.

Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in
love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he
feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust
yourself if you love him.

Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves
you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he
could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell
you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he
won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will
take you out again and forget what just happened.

You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes
will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and
dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his
emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he
crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and
patient.

He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent
times solving this puzzle.

SCORPIO WOMAN

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell
right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays
herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her
character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and
deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is
borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules.
She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a
spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good
follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power
and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will
only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all
the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they
knowing it.

If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then
you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can
understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which
could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her
X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going
to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she
will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she
will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you
can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can
earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A
man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She
likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she
start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a
degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there
are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If
she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep
all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this
matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has
good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself
together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be
no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important
than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some
Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this
woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house.
It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about
this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a
temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it.
If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair
in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to
accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you
are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations,
and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too
proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so
if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more
money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a
feeling of being a "Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When
you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you
have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to
go 5-10 minutes early.

everything seems to be true u noe

2008-08-12T21:43:00.001+08:00

Been a busy week... trust me.. 080808 was cousin Siti Nurbaizurah Wedds... gosh i have headache.. on sat didnt go anywhere... just lazyin around...sadly i didnt catch any firework or anything.. sadd ryte yeah.. as hubby is busy working... i cant possibly tink of myself ryte.. so i let him work... den on 10aug was my cuz sanding day yea we arrive there at 12 i guess.. the bride is so pretty but sadly we never take pictures with her... sigghh... hubbylove came too.. but i didnt ride with him otw to jurong i came with dad while he is riding.. :D yeah with his bandage on his hand everyone tot my bf have a tattoo.. LOOK ppl he doesnt have a tattoo is hand was injuried.. gosh.. ppl always have this thought of him lol ... nvm den we stayed there till 4pm den off we go back home a rest a lil before heading to my bestie flore place as it was her birthday :D.... yesh we manage to get ourself a nap hehehe... when i was riding with him all of my cousin was looking at me.. okok i admit.. that im the only one who have bf is riding the rest are all with car... F it la.. im not a materialistic woman... whether he have bike or not.. i dun care.. even when he have bike its very rare for me to tell him like" eh baby can u fetch me errm can u send me errmmm can we go out at nite" no okie.. that bike which i agree on him riding cause of his transportation to go work and for workin purpose... not more that.... hmm okie enough of this... hmmm once i reach at flore place i finally manage to meet vic and the rest.. trust me i miss them so very much hehe.. okok we didnt stay there long as bf was shy as there is too many ppl... ouh yesh ppl my bf is not snob but he is a shy person he will take sometimes to adapt with ppl okie.. :D hmm after from her place he headed to sembawang as both of us like hungry hehe.. so we eat prata bommm slurrpp it is sweet and nice.. i loikee.. hhehehe
On monday was his off day and yeah he stayed home apart from goin to cwp as he wanted to eat fishball soup... this is the first time ever i saw him drinkin the soup till it finish.... "is my cooked food nice hubby"? hehe hmm den he went home at night... soobbxx.. okok i did quarrel with him somehow or rather... as normal naz and her self-centered life.. gosh i really need to change that habbit... damn i hate those... so yeah den we solve the matters...
Today trust me i woke up on the wrongside of the bed and all the ppl who called me all been scolded be it whoever including my hubbylove..... so yeah im suppose to go for interview instead i postpone them to tmrw at 10... hehe.. hmm so at 130 went to ite simei to do my attration thingy to quit sch.. damn i hate that teacher its just a bloody letter and i have yet to come down and sigh den done... lol... wad a waste of my time... so yeah den after that we head to town.... to cityhall actually we planned to eat at marina square.. but i wanted to try the popey... hmm as for us it wasnt up to our taste bud we prefer KFC better... hmm was so upset... but its okie.. no harm trying... den after that we headed to heereen to have dessert.. sluurrrpp it was my all time fav. NYDC celebration hehehe... so yeah den we rushed home as its gonna rain.... but too bad when we reach at yishun the rain starts pouring like mad already.... damn i was super cold and freezing... so we stop over for awhile.. after awhile we rushed home as i was having asthma.. :( but things is okie after inhaler and stuff.. but first thing first i gotta runn and hide from mom as we were caught in the rain hehe... me and hubbylove sneak in and quickly change out heheh... so yeah that all for now will upload cuz wedding pic soon :D

2008-08-08T02:43:00.002+08:00

Rain falls down like your alibi
Thought you held the stars in the sky
Till I found your love
Was a lie

And I lost the life
And the days with you my love

All your lines I cannot erase
Pull your fingers from round my brain
But you put this hate
In my eyes

But I love the scars
Of the days with you my love

Till I found your love
Was a lie

But I love the scars
Of the days with you my love

Every second I spend away from you,
I miss you more and more,
You are my life, the fire to my soul,
Without you I am nothing.

You seem too good to be true,
The way you are always there when I need someone to talk to,
How you always know what to say to make me smile,
And the way you hold me so I always feel safe.

Your touch is so gentle and yet so strong,
That when you put your arms around me all my troubles disappear,
I never thought I would have you, never thought I deserved you,
But now I have you, I never want to let you go.

I know I can annoy you at times and I can be a winger,
But I love you and you mean everything to me,
I never want to lose you,
Because without you I am nothing.

2008-08-06T23:31:00.003+08:00

Been days i last update... it close to aweek... but nothing new in my life.. just tat im really busy searching for jobs.. and i hopeful get the job that i went at river valley :D... Not mentioning... Hubbylove took out this ride... Pretty much i can say im afraid of riding somehow or rather.... Not cause of me never ride before... but i ever fall from the bike.... sadd... still in trauma... lol.. hmm but yea.. when the first day he took the bike out.. he took me for breakfast as early as 5... den today he send and fetch me from the interview place.. den off for breakfast at marina.. :D... slurrpp being succh a pain in the ass baby.. he always love to make me smile in any sort of ways... so after breakfast we went over to his crib to visit umi... den headed home... so we rest as we woke up as early as 7 today... its was so sweet of him to take off from station just to send me to river valley.. hmmm den at 4pm we went for late lunch as i was starving but sadly the food was upset not really that nice... so yeah... den there he goes to work at canadian... so now im all alone at home while he go jb to pump petrol :D...

i know i was selfish toward yoy .. never ask neither know what u are doing... yes, is true that i was lack of attention from the family and expecting them from you.. but yeah neither i could blame you for the busy schedule as now i know that all this while you are working for me... but trust me i will never give up on u like other do... i noe i was on the losing point and can never understand ur busy schedule.. but i always trust and have faith in you.. yeah its hard for me to tell you everything... but trust me i will try to understand u even better and be strong like wad u wanted... :D hubbylove eventhought the misunderstanding i still love you and that will never change... being pressured tat im jobless and always stuck at home is sucks.. that is the reason of why im reacting.. btw abt the ride, i know you will never change for the ride as i noe the ride is for you to move about for work and stuff... i really appreciate it.. and i really do love u hubbylove.. i try my very best to learn how to strong and patience... :D

2008-07-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

Happy anniversary hubbylove.....!!!!!!!!

today was the anniversary bust sadly he gotta work like mad.. since morning till now... but its okie... no matter wad happen i still love him as who he is.. and i always do adore him all the time...
So today didnt do much just help dad to retouch the kitchen and den met up with paula and hang out with her abit :D damn she is a nice girl over all... :) so after that went amk to meet with my beloved para to get the application form from her to paula.. :D...... hmmm so after that went to wdls to talk alot at SB den headed to banquet paula and her friend was famish... so while they have the dinner i get myself a dessert tau suan hhehe.... nice slurrppp.... but overall i love my day... :D

I'm staring out in the sky
Hoping for a sign
Maybe I was high
I can't get you out of my mind

Your words are my treasure
No wise men can measure
My heart hurt to beat
If it's you I cannot meet

I wanted to see you
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to kiss you
I wanted to make you my everything

Please, let me love you
Don't care about what they say
Just let me stay
Let me be the one for you

I have none to offer you
Just my heart and soul
Always at your side loving you
Hoping for someday to be with you

I want to ease your pain
As you shielded me
I want to share my dreams to you
A I dreamed of your face

You say I am special
But you are the real deal
That my heart cannot conceal
For you are the the key

You break my barrier
With your sacred touch
A proud wolf
Brave to fight the monsters within me

Your song
Warms my frozen heart
a sweet revelation
That freed my jaded soul

Love is pure
Now i know it's true identity
From one itself is pure
Indeed, the one I want to share my reality

I want to be your shelter
To keep you warm in cold
To put my arms around you
Keeping you safe in my hold

I want to show you
How much I love you
But, much too scared
To let my feelings show

Please, don't look at me
with so much kindness in your eyes
This feeling
Would juts intensified my being

You say that you know me
Oh, how I long to hear those words
I never thought, you'd say that to me
I guess, you somehow like me then

I am a locked diary
To others
But an open book
To your clear sight

They say tears are for the weak
But you didn't consider me as one
You didn't know how much I want to thank you
But I know its isn't enough

Whenever I am down
You're always there lifting me up
Kissing away my tears
And giving me peace

I never knew love before
But it's you who showed me
It's you who love me
And that is all i needed

You always made me
Love myself
For that I know
Your love for me is pure

norman daniel,
i Love you as who u are not wad u are for... and i have been always wanting to say that i always do love u personally but my mouth could say so.. :)

love u hubbylove... happy 7th aamonthsary:)

2008-07-25T18:55:00.002+08:00

Before I met you
I no longer felt new
Every day, I felt sad and blue.
I no longer felt strong,
And in this world, I felt I didn't belong.
I never wanted to go outside,
Just wanted to crawl and hide.
Not wanting to show my face,
In my room was the only safe place.
When I felt empty inside,
At times I wanted to do the unthinkable-suicide.

Now that I've met you,
I thank God for giving me the chance to survive.
Because now I'm still alive.
Though I may not be perfect to the world,
In your eyes, I'm your perfect girl.
I want to love you for the rest of my life,
And I hope that someday you will ask me to beeome your wife.

As I sit here trying to write the words,
Instnatly, the words appear smudged and blurred.
Baby, you have given me sp many reasons to smile,
A smile so beautiful that you say you can see for miles.
When I'm with you, I'm always falling into the
Arms of your embrace, and it's always the perfect place.
Please don't feel sorry for me.
Instead, lift me up, make love to me,
And make me feel carefree!

No longer are my day's sad and blue,
Because baby I'm so in love with you.
So in closing of this poem...these tears I'm crying are
not tears from hitting a lucky seven,
Baby, these tears I'm crying are tears from God in heaven.

There no point of me taking charge of anything.
Cause in every relationship we should believe and trust one another.
Its just not me by controlling or asking the person to follow my pace.
As i know life have different pace for each individual like us.
But do not misuse the trust that have within.
Cause it will ended up upsetting the other partner.
and leading to miscommunication and misunderstanding to one another.
Trust me when such things happen the other partner will feel damn sober and mellow.
As they always think that the are never good enough for you.
Eventhough life is full of give and take, certain time we got to be selfish
and thinking about the happiness that been wanted.

so without you that lighten up there no one else will be.
hubbylove, i love you as for u are and changing to its hard for me as no one is perfect in the world. But i trusted with all my heart and never want the same thing would happen again. regardless whether its a friend but for once u gotta think of my feelings and eventhough i can seem to be anything goes. Yet i do have feeling ayte... i love so much till since morning tear never run dry. It shattered me so much.... eventhough it might be minor to you but its major to me.... So yeah...

I love you norman daniel.
the only man that i love so much.
and i was given a chance to do tattoo i do ur name on it.

2008-07-25T18:47:00.002+08:00

hubbylove I love you
and i promise to stay true
as long as you do too.

You're the light that brightens my days,
before i met you my life seemed like a maze.
you guided my way out of the maze
and showed me that love should
never be a phase.

I'm glad I have you in my life
and I'm lucky enough to be your wife.
all I ask is for you to never leave my sight
because i truly love you with all my heart, soul, and might.

This feeling with in
its new
its different

when surrounded by you
I'm out of control

my emotions run free
and wild

Ive always been loved
but never truly loved back

it came to a shock when noticing how
you really make me feel

i cant help but kiss you every time you turn
to me

hug you every time your near

because my emotions are running free

the love i feel for you
makes me feel incredible & indescribable

always love me
for i will always love you

2008-07-25T18:42:00.003+08:00

Wow without realise been days i never blog.. hmm firstly was kinda buys with my life.. and last week busy attending cuz sulastrina engagement. and yeah life pretty great just that few up and down... I really changed to different person.. cause i care less about me but kept worrying about hubbylove... and he really change me to a better person.. im not the old nazria who just love party and late nite.... drinking smoking and manymore.... apart from that i have been always home.... i seldom out unless needed.. seriously... i just do not know why la...

2008-07-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

Finally i made the blog by myself.. nothing much to change just lil here and there... :D

2008-07-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

Trust is important in every relationship
Without it relationship wont go on smooth..
No matter how bad the past haunt
Yet have to fight and give the current partner a chance to prove...

2008-07-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

Just wanna say that i Love You always...
And i opened it alot.. and making me say to you personally most of the time :D

2008-07-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

Im such a happy girl made payment for both my kimono dress and hubbylove metal mulisha cap... goshh.. it was pleased but yet i still have doubt paying for my kimono.. as i feel so bad that everytime i want to purchase hubbylove would pay them sigh... im really hopping to get the job at ttsh and hopefully they call real soon.. cant wait to get my arse to work... im bored and tired to stay home most of the day... stillin my ass out at comp.. and hurry to november as dip will start.. okok.. lately i feel to worn out.. no idea why.. guess i need to start to tann as my skin getting fairer... no.. i dun want to be fair... as most girl is dying to be fair im not.. aduuh... i love bronze i love tanneed... i dun like those pink blusher neither i like my skin tone to be white.. hmmm btw lately i have not enough time for hubbylove is not that im busy.. but he is.. almost most night he will be back home ard midnight so by then he is tired and wanting to sleep.. .so usual we will take about daily life for almost an hour den off we go to bed.. den at 6 he will get himself ready to work.. while i will just have the beauty sleep :D but yeah.. eventhough i have those sleep but yet to talk and have those conversation... damn... reason of him workin like mad just to help me get wadever i want and to school i mean in diploma... yeah.. btw i miss my bestie shima, bestie para and my GF/Bfs... miss them to the core... and to my cousin erika when are we hitting the beach i need to sun tanned.. hehe.. i just miss spending most time with hubbylove... or shall i just surprise him on a dine in dinner at some restaurant... hmmm where shall i bring him to dine.. btw soon gonna be our 7th monthsary and hoping that he gets his off day... this sunday is cousin sulastrina engagement day... boring old me have very limited top to wear for this kinda occasion hehe...

2008-07-15T20:59:00.003+08:00

sigh... i still do not know if i would spit out to my mom n dad abt sch... bet me they gonna scream like hell... but at least this time with a valid reason.. its not that im quitting for fun... sighh.. but at least im enrolling myself in BMC back too.. its not as though as i quit and i dun have any back up.... sighh.... hmmm bet they are okie with me taking accouting...

Practically hubbylove was on standby and i could not sleep till late dawn.... sigh.. now im having minor migrane... sigh.. hate when i think to much and lack of sleep... why... i do have this things before.. why now.... do i have to learn spit it out wad im keepin all this while.. but i just dunnoe why is it so hard for me to let out everysingle thing... apart from that i will tend say im fine or okie.. or tell them otherwise... damn.. i hate lying but i have to cause im always afraid that i will hurt or make people feel weird... nevermind one fine day i shall learn how to tell wad have been hiding deep under...

btw here im waiting for my hubbylove to come home so that we could have dinner together.. mom cook ayam cili padi... as dad is away we finally can eat something spicy.... btw i just made payment for hubbylove metal mulisha cap tat he always wanted... :)

2008-07-14T13:39:00.005+08:00

Hmm sunday was kinda morning wake up day for me.. as mom and dad woke me up as early as 8 to fetch my lil angel from bro place... As usual bro want to have date with sis in law lol.. okok... so fetch her and she was sitting with me at the back... damn she is putting on weight already... can feel the heaviness in her :) so yeah... once home fed her and change her diapers as she shitt... damn i hate it... so yeah... after with hubbylove fetch me to take me out :) so leaving his bag and uniform at home... we head to city hall... and yesh we were searching for our best nike slippers high and low.. when i found them they dun have my size... sigh.. wen im in love it the slipper no size aduhh.. hmm den we head to quiksliver over at Marina Square as we want to have lunch over at the food court upstairs.. so went there get this slippers and yes its on promotion buy 1 get another free.. :) and again i have additional discount from my friend apissss :) how happy that boy could be hehe.. okok.. den after we head home ard 7 plus as mom told me to be home causing wanting to send lil emily home... and sis in law and bro was home too they are from town... :P den after sending the 3 of them at cck we head to marsiling to eat satay with mom and dad... sighh... was kinda tiring day for me and hubbylove.. :) and yeah finally hubbylove agreed for the race.. damn im looking forward to see him race.. :) 2 mth time :) as abg yan said....

Smiling away :)

emilly

hmm?

She is learning to turn :)

She is sleepy

argghh...

she was about to sleep

2008-07-12T13:37:00.003+08:00

saat ini tatap mataku
Adakah kesungguhan di sana kau dapati
Seerat mungkin kau genggam tanganku
Dan rasakan kehadiranku untukmu

Cintaku bukan cinta sempurna
Tapi cukup hati ini kau miliki

Demikianlah luasnya hatiku sayang
Disanalah raga jiwa kupersembahkan

Kau jadi bagian hidupku
Saat ini dan kuharap juga esok nanti
Berharaplah kita selalu bersama
Di dalam cinta dan juga duka nestapa

Ingin kuhabiskan sisa hidup ini
Berdua selamanya
Ini sebuah cita cinta
Semoga bukan mimpi di siang hari
Atau kasih yang tak sampai...

weee.. finally after week of trying to put the pharse in malay i finally get them... hahak.. been to long las i wrote something like this... damn i got to polish it back ;)...
Hubbylove is working ryte now... can i just say im too addicted to him and now he use my fav perfume of all.. clinque happy weee.... i just love the smell and tend to smell him every now and den.. hehe.. but yeah.. eventhough me and him doesnt go out that much... like other couples do... but i rather be it this way... as i gotta study my o level still :)... still in a search of job.. but hopefully i get the one at ttsh :) with my sec.sch bestie paraa.... wee.. miss her manage to meet her the other time damn it... i think there is so much more to catch :) ..... here im at home with belo sis who is sleeping nothing to do... im just like next taitai but i dun want to be a taitai... so boring... hmm okie la shall end them here.. ")

2008-07-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

Noone knows how soft i can be.. As my aggressive look and sport like girl.. no one know that the soft side of me is always hidden.. i never tend to even show them out unless needed... Without realising soon me and hubbylove gonna be 7 mth and end of the year will be our first year together.. damn time fly so fast... but im always have the thinking that im always never good enough for him... I just do not know why do i always have this feelings... I was thought that i have not give the love that he is searching for... siggh.... I got to break this thru.. i dun want anything happening... But with the support of everyone and him been loved by the family have been delighted for me.. even mom and dad if he didnt come home they will ask if he would come home... hmm i love this boy and i want to spend my life with him... and i want him to be the father of my children.... :)

2008-07-11T15:13:00.002+08:00

Sadness i have to leave all the dream behind and fall on the other... Yes, i have skin problem in which i cant hold any chemical handling in school.... Without noticing it i had the problem eversince in ite bukit batok.. but i breakthru it and goin for accounting course instead... its okie i have my bestie shima to help me and teach me alot of things... she have been a guidance to me.. eventhough that effing misunderstanding quarrels jealousy and stuff.. but we still be strong in friendship... and yeah hubbylove is also the person always be by myside whenever i need him... thru the crying and stuff trust me.... He is a love... goshh... hmm... btw yeah today he is on 24hrs shifts... and i hate it so much... i can only meet me tmrw night as in midnight... damn it.. for sunday i do not know if we could even go out.. btw yeah i want to buy famous amos cookies im so craving it... hmm shall update more tonight.. :P

2008-07-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

I dont mind not having expensive gifts
I dont need them either.
I just want that smile for you all the time
The inner person of you...
I just want you to walk out of the previous life and walk a new with me.
No matter what the person whom i need to guide me is you
and the person that i truely love is you....
I just dont want thing or feeling that is hidden between us.
I just wanna stick with you all the time
I just do not know what else or to elaborate..
As i know no one is perfect...
Even a item that is so accurate can have error on it..
Boy, you know you worth much more that the precious diamond that every woman dream of.
I just want you to breakaway the past...

2008-07-09T16:32:00.002+08:00

I want to kiss your pain away
i seek to shine your rainy day
i want you forever , to be mine
i want to get drunk from your wine

and babe every time i think of you
i feel the world is mine for true
and passion that belongs to you
starts to burn & fuse my pew

oh ! every time you reach my mind
i turn senseless and , i twist blind
i feel unbalanced & going to fall
reach my mind ! & i wont feel at all

i want to kiss your pain away
i seek to shine your rainy day
i want you forever , to be mine
i want to get drunk from your wine

Mightily ! i desire to hug you
to see the world through your hue
to touch the hand of your soul
to hear your bell when it tolls

and baby all i want from this world
is to hear from you one single word
just let me hear when you say i love you
and i swear i feel i owned the world for true

2008-07-08T23:03:00.002+08:00

How can i denied that i dont love u at all..
I always do love you...
They way u cared and showed me how you love me...
Those bad sleep that i have, the sickness that im facing the allergy that im facing, that school i want to go... gosh
Now i feel weird nights without you here...
mayb cause im always used to have u here..
To scold and nagg for not scratcthing those rashes part, To tell me everysingle night to eat my medication as you i will skipped them as when i like, and applied for me the cream before goin to bed.... You tolerate with the moodswings and stuff... when im at home... the tears that i hold back cause of the problem at home.. damn i miss those just cant wait to see you tmrw evening.. can i just fast forward time... :) hmmm i miss you hubbylove... you have been always here to support me all this while.. ;)

btw cant wait for you to make decission on the race and which sponser will you be with... eventually i will be there to support you too.... I just want to see you race on that dirt... i dont mind sacrified the time just for you to train.. :) and i hope and wish that you make a wise decission... :)

2008-07-05T17:50:00.002+08:00

looking for new job. gosh damn it so hard to get a job here in singapore btw tmrw is amber dayout day... gosh im looking forward to it... Gonna bring her out while the daddy gonna look for his shoes.. :) and mummy still on shopping mode hehee.. btw i just bid a smocked tube black maxi dress online... damn its simple but easy to wear out :) but still im gonna save the money half for KL and another half is for VS clothes... and yes im gotta be learn to be more femmine... I bought alot of dress but never wear till hubbylove said i bought them for tayang in the wardbrobe hehehe.... but now im gonna get some stuff like unusual stuff online... me and bf have been always search for metal mulisha things damn its nice.. and i love them thanks to him.. btw he was offered for race but he still considering.. hubby go ahead and join i would love to see you race :) with the suit and stuff awww.. hehehe omg im so feeling.. btw i love him so much and i cant afford to not meet him for aday... today he is coming home and cant wait for him to come.. btw yeah today mom is sick so i went to NTUC and buy chix,celery and carrot for chicken soup slurrrppp.... so cookking dem later and yeah hope hubby come home early to help me... btw i gonna send resume as im gonna start new work soon.. maiden bra hehehe cool im working at bra shop now hehehehe den no worries as i always see girls... and i wont be that bad for my bf too... :) im askin idah to join me there tooo... hehhe den we can work together2.. .hehe okie la i wanna clean my room again as tmrw emily and amber will be here cool... love love this 2 lil monster.. the are super adorable till i wont want to let them go oonce cuddle :)

2008-07-04T18:45:00.007+08:00

Here is back date picture of my lil nipote that mean lil niece in italian.... She call me Zia rya and hubbylove zio daniel while she call my sis Tia eera and my elder bro obek :).... she calls my parent oma and opa. while call her parent ibu ayah... isnt that great.. ;) she is only weeks old yet she is behaving like 3mths babies... Theres also picture of me and hubbylove on wed during dinner at pizza hut and today while he parked dad cars :)

When i grow up i want to be model

Smiling went ayah and ibu were talking to her.

Amelia aka Emily with Kaka

See how strong she is

She even hold her own bottle

Read the jumper. :)

Hubby parking the van

Pose for the cam? ;)

Tis is actual him parking ;)

When she is 2days old

IM hungry and he is angry :P

Happy us when drumstick came

During the day.

love driving?

When i say he cant park properly :)

Her full name NUR AMELIA AHMAD NIZAM
aka. EMILY

Sleeping on her zia...

took when she sleep

hungry hubby :P

2008-07-04T03:24:00.002+08:00

In the mist of the night,
Two lovers walk along the beach.
As they continue to walk,
The sand caresses their feet.

It's just the two of them,
Spending an enchanting evening in each other's arms.
Hoping to never let go -
of the perpetual love they share.

As the sweet whispers of the waves,
Send shivers up their spines...
The ocean remains persistent -
up-and-down, up-and-down.

As they apotheosize the beautiful horizon,
They exchange passionate kisses.
It is then that the ceaseless affection proliferates -
amidst the two souls like never before...

Like the rising tide, beating hearts grow but never die.

Where is the place,
Where all makes sense?
Is there such a place?
Ah, yes
It's in the soft look upon your face

Where is the place,
Where i don't have to hide?
Is there a place where I don't have to wear a disguise?
In you is where it lies

It's in your heart
In you I know that I am loved
It's your love
With you I am never alone

This place you can never know,
Unless you're falling in love
It's no physical, visible place
You can't find it on a map
It's in his heart

2008-07-04T01:36:00.002+08:00

Im glad that i found someone that really pamper me and tolerate with all the things that i always craving for... hmm for info i dont usually shop every mth unless like the usual things like make up and my every needs.. apart from that for clothes and stuff.. i only bought it like every 3 mth or so once... that one also like for the mth itself i could spend like 300++ but that all... it worth to buy with so many bag ;).... hmmm Practically im looking for a new job as i kinda dun like the workin enviroment.... hmm soon gonna replace... gosh.. im still thinking if i should work at bodyshop,Club21,Fjbenjamin, as a part time tutor or back to starbucks.. goshh im so confuse... Btw i miss all my gfs.. the outing.. and many more... i really need to get back to study and learn how to juggle things.. hmm... gosh... hmm btw this few week i having pms to the core.. i dont even spare a thought to hubbylove feelings but eventhough he will tell me off... BY the end of the day, the person who always tuck me to sleep everynight is him..... I always fall to deep sleep and he will tuck me in and kiss me for the last time before he go to bed... i just miss those moment like i was a lil girl.. as i grow older i dont get them from my parent.. and now its him who doing it again.. i just love and will eventually fall to deep sleep peacefully... Seeing him almost everyday make me closer and wanting to stay with him forever... :) btw he really have stole the precious heart of mine and always making me loving him every single bits :)

2008-07-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

weee im a happy girl now... bought alot of things today.. practically first went hunting for the gladiator sandal which i found them in far east and cost 24 only... den get my nike mary jane love love them so much thanks to hubbylove comment :) and bought make up at galleria sephora...nice make up... but gosh tell u something the bronzer super big can use for 6 mth u noe... hehehe but i love this.... cant wait for the online shop things... gosh tell u.. that im so in love with those that i want to buy... okok.. i maybe not the lil girl who runs with dresses every wear... im a a girl with its own mindset... hehehe.. i love to wear something that im comfortable weee....

2008-06-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

Kiss me once for the good times
Twice for goodbye
Pull me close if you love me
Don't let it die
Hold my hand tightly
And never let go
Keep me close to your heart
You'll never know
How much I love you
And how much I care
No matter what happens
I'll always be there
So as I leave you
On this bright afternoon
Know that I love you
And I'll be seeing you soon.

I love you the way you are
I want you the way you are
You dont need to change for
Me anything

And because I love you
And because I want you
You donâ??t need to change anything

Because I love you,
And I love you,
And I love you again

I love you
And you love me too
And we, we are together
In love

And I want you
And you want me too
And we, we are together
Want each other

When you dream about me
And when I dream about you
We are running away

And when I think about you
And you think about me too
We are like love each other

Because I love you,
And I love you,
And I love you again

I love you
And you love me too
And we, we are together
In loveee

And I want you
And you want me too
And we, we are together
Want each other

Because I love you,
And I love you,
And I love you again

But you
Only
In my
Dreams

You have been such a patience man toward me.. never give up in me.. never want to let me down neither put me thru in any situation.. the best in life..... Neither the gift nor anything but the love u always gave never fade... You always treat me lil princess never the less that whenever im craving for something u always work hard just to get me those.. :) and yeah i have not been watching wad i eat till i have bad rashes breakout till they does not spare me any thought and yeah... many more... but u still been helpin me to watch over dem eventhough my stubborn head still say i want to eat.. :) here u are standing and going thru the hardship in me... Due to me... you always delay the payment of the bike... as u always said that my health come first before your bike... that why i always glad and proud to be with you...

2008-06-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

Happy 6th monthsary sweetheart... :)

late night supper at mac was great... i miss those moment at home... whenever im hungry i will call macd.. hmm sorry for not getting you anything this time... So yeah today both of us doesnt spend the time together like other.. as we have to work... hmm.. its okie.. to me everysingle day that im with you is always special.. :) Loving you is the best i can ask for... gosh... without realising 6 mth have gone.. hmm... wad a day... btw tmrw im suppose not to work and meet bf instead.. but dunno la.. des suddenly text me saying that i work 4 - cls... sign im resigning soon.... as they just love to give me last min schedule.. gosh.. like today is sunday den later in the late night when u planned ur thing then they text... stupid.. i might be joining Club 21 or Nike for part time... hmm see how.. i have sent couple resume here and there... and hopping to wait for the reply.... gosh i have been working like mad.. and even have lil time for him... and soon im gonna start school.. and im hoping the 3day to kl with him i could spend quality time with him to the max... :)

2008-06-28T22:20:00.001+08:00

PMS AND MORE PMS.. this is killing me.. overacting sensitive and emotional and many more.. damn i hate this so much... suddenly im unconsiderated and never want to give in.. damn me.. wad is happening.. sigh....

2008-06-26T09:41:00.007+08:00

Hubbylove is sleeping... and yeah here is the time to post up as much as possible :) btw he is not strong with the medication whenever he eats dem he get drowsy easily and he tend to sleep thru out... pity him... hmm btw all this while he have been taking care of me to the max... even jus minor thing he will take it as a major incident.. thank you dear... so now its my turn to take care of him.. too bad im not a nurse and thank god im not a nurse.. and i cant pull myself to see wound blood fractured or broken parts.. gosh... i can faint.. :P btw yeah i cant wait for the monthsary and i just realise time is so fast... but yeah still have 6 more month to be our 1st anniversary... :)
Hmm btw dad also told me to list down the things that i need... hmm firstly in mind was my laptop, hard drive, psp,braces and new phone mayb will get those beauty pone kind... or i change to walkman phone and get myself a new digi as my DCS-H5 is super bulky... its not that i dun like them i love dem... but i only use them in certain occasion... like family gatherin, wedding, function or anything that need it.. gosh... hmm... see how la provided dad is willing to get them for me... :)

Btw confirm of goin to KL trip 8july-11july... woohooo... cant wait shop and shop and shop... :) but i myself dunnoe what to get there... lol... there too many things in the mind to buy his belated birthday gifts also not fulfilled yet.. btw this lover of mine have a fickle minded head.. till now he still cant decide wad bike to get... KR,RXZ,125Z or KTM... :P but im fine with all.. as long as he will be a safety rider... waiting for him to make a decission... hmm...
guess that all for now...

2008-06-26T09:41:00.004+08:00

I thought that hiding all my feelings
was protecting my heart
so I never built anything
high enough to fall apart
and what I was looking for
didn't know where to start
I can't believe this is happening

The day I met you
I said welcome to the rest of my life
cuz you
and all the emptiness died
I was afraid to give love another try
Oh I can't believe this is happening

(chorus)I know that this might get me in trouble
But it's time I let my fences down
Cuz I am no longer afraid of a struggle
Oh I'll overcome
I'll overcome

Guess I'm addicted to happiness
I just can't get enough
so I decided to give a try and
surrender my trust
I've got no choice left
but to believe in us
and finally this is happening

chorus

I finally let myself go
I let all my guards down
baby I'm yours now
you're in control
I took the chains off my soul
and now I'm in love

chorus

I don't care anymore
I'll overcome
I've overcome

2008-06-26T09:41:00.003+08:00

2008-06-26T09:41:00.002+08:00

Weee... i finally found wad my lil niece or shall i say la nipote. that mean niece in italian :) she gonna call me and hubbylove in italian.. la zia elvrya and la zio daniel... :) wow.. cool.. in korean also dan but abit weird though in korean sam chon and sook mo that mean uncle and aunty.. gosh.. that is even funny so i shall stick to la zia rya or she still will call me la zia baby as baby is my family nick name... and for hubbylove is la zio daniel... :) hmm.. soon mom and dad will bring her back home that mean i can take her out cool... hmm so yeah shall stick wiht la zia rya and la zio daniel... ;)

btw its rare for me to wake up early in the morning as today @ 8am i have my breakfast with hubby love... :) yeah den now he is a sleep... pity him... wake up so early just cause im hungry.. so we made pancake and yeah we ate them all hehehe... so today i do not know what is the plan... goshh...

2008-06-25T13:37:00.002+08:00

Gosh a week of not updating... :P practically i was busy with my new baby emily... my sis in law just gave birth to Nur amelia Ahmad Nizam. cool... she is effing cute... have abit of my sibling face abit of my sis in law and mostly like the father... gosh.. she is so cute... yeah its my first niece super pampered.. and super princess... :) btw she gonna call my bro and sis in law Ayah,ibu... kinda old school but sweet... while calling my elder bro Obek and sis bibik.. while me and bf still thinking either zio daniel which me uncle daniel or in korean word oh btw zio was in italian.. hehehe mom want us to be diff... hmm.. btw i will post her pic soon.. she is damn smart.... to paula if u see her trust me u pon geram tau.. :)

okk secondly i dint update cause hubbylove met with accident.. thank god it wasnt that serious eventhough it wasnt serious when he told me that my heart was tumbling.. .so the night of the accident i accompany him to the hospital.. but the bloody TTSH just wont give him that 3days mc.. while he was limping darn it.. so on monday he report back to the station to endoss his mc and the encik told him to go Alexendra hospital.. and there he get 4days mc... :) so yea resting at home.. but yeah i took 2days off just for him practically im super boread now.. damn it.. btw this few days i have mood swing.... pms... damn pms.... gosh.. i cant have patience on this.. tiny little thing... i pity hubbylove that he gonna gone thru this.... hmm... okokie guess shall stop here den... shall write more soon

2008-06-19T01:10:00.005+08:00

I thought it was true
You ripped my heart out
I guess thats the thanks
I get for loving you

Your kiss was passionate
Your love nothing but a lie
I trusted you to catch me
When I fell
You only dropped me to
Watch me cry

I thought i was your one and only
The girl who stayed in your dreams
Obviously you dont know what you want
At least, thats how it seems

Whether I like it or not
This will always be true
No matter how bad you hurt me
I will always love you

Wed be laughin all night
letting time slip away
starin at eachother
for like the whole entire day

we be lyin on the grass
lookin at the stars
they feel real close
but seem too far

i wud fall asleep from there
thinkin time wud stop
to leave us together forever more
and so no more tears wud drop

but i wake to find myself in bed
with u by my side
id smile to myself
sayin that ur my perfect guy

i go outside and close my eyes
lyin on the windy air
next thing i knew
i find u hugging me right there

i smile at u
lie in ur strong arms
cuz you always be my baby
i know you would not mean no harm

2008-06-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

Noticing now my hubby is facing the worst thing that he asking for.. but yeah i have to stand by his side and be strong with him... Knowing that the granny is really sick and his lil niece crying all long make me realise this is life.. people come and go.. neither we want this to happen... and yeah... all this while he have fulfilled all what she wanted except for the last 1... The last 1 that is very hard to be fulfilled unless you really ready and prepard everything... But i hope this gonna be fine... seeing him not eating, keep thinking, riding with no clear mind make me more worried... Eventhough he doesnt have his own bike.. But he work delivery his life is also at stake.. and yesh today he nearly accident again... Im totally scared when i hear such thing.. eventhough i didnt show how worried i can be and stuff but trust me deep inside me i was like please dont do it again and if possible dont ride... lol... Seen and been what had happen before... Now i really wad am i suppose to do for him to stand back on his feet.... goshh.... He is always my pillar and now he need me to be his pillar i do not know what to offer... I cant possibly said that i want to visit the granny ryte.. i have not tied a knot with him.. im just his gf now.. gosh... i really do not know what to do.... goshhh wad a gf am i... i cant even think of anything... damn shitt

2008-06-17T01:54:00.004+08:00

Just there where no one cries
Sky where no vulture flies
No stinking smell of rotten flesh
I promise I'll love you there
With my heart afresh

Where no man lives in the street
For living no one touches your feet
No possessor of mankind, no deprived slave
I promise I'll love you there
With all my rave

Just there when you open the door
To the strangers to help them more
No destitute dies like an eternal waste
I'll be with you there
And love you my best

Where there is no cultural debate
A place where no religions to hate
People live life like as it is
I promise I'll love you there
Like an open breeze

Just there where my brothers don't fight
No war and no soldiers on either side
No discriminations for any colour and race
I'll be waiting for you there
To see your angelic face

Where there is no boundary to confine people
No one fights for religious steeple
No holy war to put life in a swirl
I promise I'll love you there
In that blessed world.

I long to see your face
to feel you presence
to enclose on our space
to look into you eyes
to know that I'm your chase

I want to feel you hand in mine
to escape the world and enter yours
to see your smile shine
to know every fear entered in you
to smell your scent like wine

will end this entry with love...

I need to hear your soothing voice
to know where I stand with you
to know if we are making a right choice
to forget finalitties from the past
to tell you how you make me rejoice

2008-06-17T01:54:00.002+08:00

Nevertheless hubby love and me going to KL on 9-11july... gosh cant wait.. as planned i wanted to go bali.. but time have not permit yet... so why not that short trip as he need to clear his leaves... :D shopping time hehe.. but yeah im working like mad just for the trip hehe.. bad bad elvrya... hmm i have a couple overdue bday present like faddy,zeda and yaya bday... gosh... i really dunnoe wad to get them.. first faddy a girl who somesort like me.. harap je mcm pompan tapi kasar.. but zeda more on softer side and yaya she wear tudung goshh that is even harder... hehe...

today hubby didnt come home as he need to help his friend repair the bike.. and tmrw he gonna fetch me from work again.. damn im a bad girl ask him to fetch me... and yeah i will be helpin sarah aunt shop at parkway i noe its abit to far.. but yeah cause of the trip im willing to work that extra mile... hehehe.. i miss hubbylove now.. usually this time i always sneak him in to my room hhehe.. den he will sleep on the floor and me on the bed and hold hands together.. and we will fall asleep... but yeah we have to rotate the stay... mom will only fly went my lil niece is out.. once emily out den they will fly.. first granddaughter mahh of course excited... cant wait to see her out... practically wad i planned was sooner or later amber is turning 1 den by den emily is 4mth and i can take both of dem out together... isnt that cute.. amber turning to big sis.. hehe.. okok practically im suppose to sleep but i cant shut my eyes... and im hoping idah get the job at my work place so that we can work together... weee....

2008-06-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

I have given you my heart,
Keep it safe in your hands.
Once it was broken,
But with you it has began to mend.

I have shown you a side,
that only one other has seen.
So whenever I say I love you,
That is truly what I mean.

So take my heart,
And give me yours.
Together we can make it threw,
This dangerous little world.

With him it felt like a ball and chain.
But with you,
It feels like my feathers have grown back in,
And I can fly again.

No one can effect this feeling I have for you,
So stay true to me,
And I will be to you two.

So hugs and kisses,
X's and O's ,
Until I write again,
I want you to know.

Take my heart and keep it safe.
If it breaks again,
I don't know how long it will take.

I know you tell me you love me all the time
you tell me it almost every night
I love you is three words too little
because I love you even after Goodnight

You keep me in this existence
Just being with you is more than I've ever expected
You are more than just a good looking hunk
You're the one this heart selected

i need you to know
You mean so much to me
And I think about you everyday
So if you stay, well then I'll stay

i know you tell me you love me all the time
you tell me it almost every night
I love you is three words too little
because I love you even after Goodnight

but no matter what i always proud of you as you have been always taking good care of me... even those saddness can turn to joy whenever im with you...
love love you tonz hubbylove~

2008-06-15T22:33:00.002+08:00

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and mixed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

by beyonce.

a song with full of meanings....

2008-06-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

pretty much i was busy with work lately so went home all shaggs down.. hubbylove is alternating the home stay... as his granny is sick.. practically im fine with it as his family need him most now... Hmmp... futhermore home is madness this few days i dun wish to elaborate more as important i just want things to be turn out good.. i just realise that been weeks that i last post a poem goshh... hmm practicall today post is kinda short.. btw i miss my hubbylove.... cant wait to meet him tmrw noon...

2008-06-11T22:26:00.004+08:00

Update and update...
I havent been updating due to mugging for test.. gosh.. chemistry was sucks to the core.. i flung both prac and theory.. damn i really need a buck up... hmm practically but food science was great.. most i can manage to do it.. chuckles... hmm btw also i have been busy with work too... recently i got myself a job at inQbox just to help some finacial for my pocket money.. but i miss hubbylove to the max... realising that we are used and often together wen i start work and so did he i feel every min every sec is so precious.. nowdays i seldom meet him like last time as he is back in station which im glad of it.. but yeah... he earning extra is always a must... seriously first pay im for sure gonna get him that top at AX... darn.. when is the pay... gosh super long way to go... Ouh ya in school this few weeks was so quiet only the april intake is left in sch. the rest having hols cool huh? but in class we have so problem.. lol which class have no problems.. but the mates was great and funny... zeda, syera,ahbeng,pau,fred,faddy.yeok,nad ruddi is always making me looking forward for school.. event in class if i dun understand they always there to make me understand....

Not realising how many month i have not taken my lil precious god-daugther out... was been missed.. damn it... i miss that lil girl and the mama told me that she is able to fit in to my timberland shoes that i bought for her.. surely cute... i miss her so much... hubby can we please that the lil girl out.. :) miss her to the max.. and i love her too.... :) she is like my precious gems apart from hubbylove....

okk shall get back to mugging for test... will update like usual once im done with test ayte.. :)
btw here is the bday boy who celebrate the birthday in my room on my bed with his sepet eyes that cannot been seen... as though it is swollen.. :) * eh kenape mate u kecik? have swollen eyes isit?

see how small his eyes is.... :P
he so gonna kill me for saying this...

the cake that have been cut and he stole the choco roll...

the surprise in my room hehe

the big 20

he cant wait to eat the cake and see hw messy my study table is with all the wires and lappie books hahaha

2008-06-05T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hubby happy 20th birthday

firstly as pernormal im broke so yeah instead of getting him the luxury stuff.. this time i made them my own... i didnt even bought him a card... i made him a sketch book instead... so there a couple pix of him and us... and he love it... so 5 min bfore midnight i gave him the sketch to be read and den here come the cake.. =) chuckles... and yeah at 12 midnight can u image we ate chocolate cake.. gosh... no wonder i gain weight easily as too much supper everynight hehe... so yeah... he didnt expect me to get them.. but yeah as i cant celebrate them luxury dine in... pathetic dinner at home and cutting cake in the room.. was kinda sweet too... =) hmm... so today suppose to go school but ended up to his crib... lol i was suppose to sit for a test... damn it.. but yeah due to the feet have bad rashes.. i got 2days mc... weeeEeee.... and den after poly headed to his crib.. there was his mom and cute lil niece.. and yeah.. im very bad to have conversation with his mom.. its always me who keeping quiet like a mouse lol... but his lil niece is super cute la.. we were like ika makan... den she ate with me and hubby.. ") and den after that she came to me and i tied her hair.. and the uncle said she look like a mad girl... practically i just love kids.... and How i wish i could have my very own.. hahaha.. but its okie... my lil niece is execpting anytime now alreaadyyy... cant wait.. lil NUR AMELIA AHMAD NAZMI aka Emily Nazmi. gosh.. a small cute baby with 2 names just like the father... and secondly.. i have send resume to this urban collection retailer.. gosh.. cant wait to even start work and hoping i get it... and yeah.. i will be working there part time.... and i will make a point that i will have time everysingle day for my hubbylove... no matter wad i still have to learn to juggle all... and promise to maintain that grades of mine... cant wait.. damn it.. finally an income of my very own... weeEee... i wont need to trouble no one.. and i love it... here comes my pampering and the elvrya is back... ;) and i love pampering the bf too hehehe.... cant wait for him to have his leave so i can have him everyday.... grrr....

2008-06-03T19:16:00.002+08:00

weekend was kinda okie la.. with hubbylove around the day was dark become bright.. :)
so yeahin hours time is his birthday and trust me i havent get him anything.. as my budget runs alot.. damn it... i wish i could be working back like last time so i can pamper him to the max.. if he wanted to go club also can... but now the "F"ing problem im broke damn bored mom wont give me extra allowance as i overspent it pass month.. damn it.. but its okie.. at least i made him something special for tonight... hehee*grinz*

Practically monday is suppose to be Theory day which i didnt attend my class lol.. i have damn bad rashes on my feet.. went to the polyclinic and that doctor said it was jus allergy... For heaven sake i noe how my allergic to some food of product on my body.. it will have react and stuff but not on my feet...! and its getting worse... damn it...

Today in school was great i ate breakfast at cafe 1.. but nahh i prefer cafe 2 still.. :) practical ended eariler den what i expected.. and yeah... i ended at 1130 instead of 1... so im suppose to meet bestie without bf knowing :) so hubbylove i have to lie cause of your surprise gifts tonight.. sorry.... :x and yeah.. so i was at cafe 2 all the way till 1230 as bestie ended sch late..Grrrr... bishan always want things to be tip top.. no offence but i just love the discpline there.. hehe.. and yeah so we headed to CWP survey some cute tiny little cake and also another for the day that he is off.. ;) den we went popular to get the sketch book the cards and glue.. and the birthday card is made from scratch.. i just love to do it on my own for someone special and yeah i just love to write poetry.. so they sketch book and couple of potery and the rest are pics... thanks to the idea from bestie.. and yeah she is part of my secret in every little things.. :) without bf realising.. actually we planned something for him... but bestie have something up on friday.. darn it.. its okie shall surprise it on the day that he didnt know ayte.... :)
btw to the cases of the ex.. please i dun want any bothers from you and you.... ayte.... i just want this relationship to be peace...

2008-05-31T14:22:00.002+08:00

I seem couldnt help hubby with the problem that he faces.. firstly... im not working and its hard for me to talk abt money... haizz.. and secondly i dunnoe wad to say apart being a listening ears to him... actually i have something to say it just wont let them out... as im afraid that he doesnt like it... haiz.. why am i hard to talk things out or to give my piece of mind.... i always take it a light thing and eventhough i know that im right... i will always say im wrong... damn it... no matter what it takes nothing seem can be right... btw i can never run away from problem and i wish i could help hubby if im working and finacially stable... and hubby have done so much for me.. and now i got to help him if he need my help.. guess i shudnt wait any longer to get myself a part time job... i really in need of a job ryte now.... i couldnt help it already....

2008-05-30T23:37:00.001+08:00

ILY my hubbylove.....

okie im bored already yet sleepy that is why my post today is super lame

so good night ppl....

2008-05-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

Happy 5 monthsary Hubbylove

To be with you is all i wanted..
To spend all my days and time with you
And i will look forward for the upcoming years and months to come...
I have been loving you eversince the very first day that we have been together....
you have been the light on my sunny sunshine
and you have the that gilters to my stars....
So Loving you is always the piority and leaving you never exist in my life....

So hope you had a good day with me jus now....

Love you always....

2008-05-27T22:18:00.003+08:00

I have been an emotional day for me today...
Maybe cause too much of pressure that i have of my own
Called hubbylove just now.. and yeah i miss him... its only 2 day and i miss him like hell... He have been my pillar all this while, a place that i can complaint, whine and share my problem with... Seriously today its seem like its not me... haiz... i never behave i like i used too.. arghh why am i so pressured.... hate this feelings... knowing that i cant do much now.. making me to push my very own limit to work harder to be fit like i used to be.... damn.. but i dun want to disappoint them again... of my stupid reaction... but till wen am i suppose to be like... i want to old hyper active NAZRIA! who played sports like there no tmrw and juggle school in same time.... haiz.. how i wish i was the old me like years ago... hope to recover and back to sports....

to daniel ily, you so much... and hope to see you soon.. i really miss you...

2008-05-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

Its already 1 plus and i missing my love... gosh.. been almost aweek that we are not sharing everything together eversince mom n dad at home.. gosh.. but the good news is that my bf is gonna out of the operation already wohhoooo.. love love love.. i can have him all the time now.. actually i have him most of the time already but its okie i cannot leave him... lol like his mom say"korg asik nk berkepit je.. kalau tak berkepit tak sah" hehhe but yea that is me... i love to cling to my bf.. i cant let him go either stop kissing him hehe.. seriously.. he have been making me shine smile cry and advise me in all sort of ways.. i truely love him man.. which i dunnoe why... the power of love to him is so strong its seem that i cant be control.. gosh.. im purely obesses by his love himself and everything abt him... HUbbylove you have been such a darla to me.. and i never want it to stop even a sec... love love love u so much.... please dun stop showering the love that we have now.... cause i treasure them in everysingle way....

2008-05-25T13:43:00.004+08:00

counting the day of the anniversary and his birthday.. gosh cant wait for him to turn 20.. gosh... hubby you getting older already.. .gosh.... and yeah... and hope to see him soon later in the evening.. cant wait to meet him later... he have 2 days off and tmrw i hope he will fetch me from school.... :)

You asked me last night if I loved you
I thought my emotions were plain to see!
I want to make sure you know
Just how much you truly mean to me:

If I only had one more day on Earth
I'd spend it with you, just holding on tight
I love you more with every breath I take
When I'm with you everything is right.

I love feeling your breath on my neck
Do you see this smile upon my face?
Did you know that you keep it there?
It's one I'll never be able to replace.

If I had ten thousand mouths, I'd
Kiss you with every single one
And if I had ten thousand arms, I'd
Hug you and start over when I got done.

Drowning slowly in your sparkling eyes
Diving soothingly in mighty indigo ocean
Floating smoothly on gently lashing waves
Washing out blues in pearly marine waters

Flying high across midnight's moonlit skies
Straying among stars in a distant milky way
Gliding towards galaxies of bright celestial lights
Letting all troubles disappear in faraway darkness

Echoes of blissful whispers spreading in the air
Melodies of joy harmonizing serenity of lives
Wondrous times outlast, eradicating all fears
Warm embraces of love lasting throughout nights

Drawing into raptures over your angelic presence
Ravishing smiles bloom like blossoms of sweet roses
Wandering along bewitching trails with great pleasure
Romancing hearts surrendering to supreme forces of love

love you in every single bits and pieces...