Okie without mom and dad the house like so quiet...
yesterday noone send mom and dad except for me and dad friend.. lol.. babylove came over for awhile to help load things up to the van than off he go to work again.. soobx.. we jus meet for like an hour plus.. soobx... and today again without him.. gosh so bored at home without him.. Used to do things together.. everywhere we go it is a must to be with each other... hoping that tmrw his leave is approve.. So he could accompany all day long at home... lol... hmm tonight sis and eein going for drink how i wish i could go again... aduiii... but promise still a promise will only go with him around... hmmm okie will update more tonight

What a tired day...
yesterday went to the beach in the morning and yeah went there for tanning gosh been so long i last go tanning... if nt every 2 weeks once is a must... darn... lol.. hmmm went there with baby.. he fetched me from home as he want me to share the same bag as him... *sibok je baby nie* hmm btw yesterday i cook for lunch ayte.. gosh.. i hope what baby eat is okie.. lol cooked chili yong tau foo... hehe.. love cooking.. hmm after lunch chill for awhile den off we to the water... hehe.. hmmm okie... after tanning and get ourself wet and all we went to wash up @ 5plus.. den head to habour front for dinner... goshh... i wonder why am i super hungry nowdays... eat like monster... every hour must eat.. mayb cause i stayed too much at home and nt working... darn... after all those we straight head home as both super exhausted.... lol.. pity my babylove he was super tired yet accompanied me to the beach.. love love him alot.. and love him whenever he said he love me nt even an hour later he would say the same thing... gosh... hmm okie


Today its a famiily day so babylove would come over and spend his day with me and mom and dad.. ouh ya mom and dad will be goin jakarta for work so sadd.. and tis for amth.. so 4 week straight no family day out... gosh.. darn im so gonna be cleanning the hm.. haizz... today did nuthing much jus accompany dad to buy his youth olympic coke for his collection den he and babylove went for margrib prayers... yeah me and mom chilled at orange julis... bad2 us lol... after that head to bedok as dad n mom wanna meet my cousin den off we go for late dinner at gelyang baru to eat the best lamb soup... hehe but i didnt have that i had mutton chop instead... lol... goshh wad a day send babylove home and here i am blogging hehe while is sleepinngg opppss...
okie tmrw is kakak marsita birthday(babylove sis-in-law) didnt noe what to get for her.. lol
hmm im super broke now... damn it... argghh f*** it so gonna ask mom for some cash.. btw im kinda sleepy now... jus will update more trmw

wonder how this could ever be
as he rises something within me
too quickly like a coming tide
he sees me melt inside
like Swiss chocolate on a summer day
every time he smiles my way

I try my hardest not to blush
but I can hardly restrain this rush
flowing into every pore of my skin
it is as if what he does to me is a sin
he chuckles at my sweet laughter
and he knows that he has become my captor

I want so badly for this to last forever
not just long enough for the good weather
but shortly it will end and I know it will be soon
I’ll be staring up at that watchful moon
wondering if he might be thinking of me
wishing that we could once again just be

I'm dreaming of an undying dream
but from this heartache I must redeem
for wishing won’t get you far
just to a fortified trap inside a jar
though I long for him and I to be once more
I know that desire can become a bore

know that what I held for him is love
still present like a newborn dove
in the depths of the lonely night
I’ll be yearning for him by the glowing light
and yet what I held for him will be forever
the day we are ever a couple is probably never

and yes, this creates in me a distasteful pain
but I know it as true as this falling rain
and I see him just beyond every hill
and it’s always him I’m thinking of when I get a chill
I know it’s him I will always long for
because he is the one who can get to my very core

you knew eveything about me...
you knew when theres something that i would want to tell you..
you knew when i kept feelings in me
you knew every bits of me when im in trouble...
By me lying no point cause you knew everything in me...
You took care if me when im sick...
You took action as soon as possible to get me dignosed
Even worst you wont let me have jus even a scratch on my hand..
If i were to hurt myself or to be hurt your are the person who is so "kanchiong"
like today just a cut on my lips that i hitted on.
You're panic..
I see your true love in me and whats your piorities is...
Baby your are the most hilarious gracious wonderful absolutly lovely guy of my life.....
my feelings keep on growing for you.
just cant bare to take a moment of you....
ILY u so much daniel...

Another day without my babylove... gosh been so bored at home... practically suppose to do my hair today but cant jus be bothered will jus wait for babylove.. hmm.. okie... went out with mom and dad.. den while in the van mom and dad was talking where did they go during their dating days its was fun to know.. lol.. while dad was driving he passed by cheeky.. and dere i remember where my first love with baby starts... hehe... okok.. let not elaborate tat as me and babylove dun want to tink abt where u meet.. okie..
hmm i dunnoe wad to say to mom and dad abt us getting to the next stage.. haiya why isit so hard... why isit so hard for us to say im too afraid tat mom n dad thinks tat is too early.. but i dunnoe.. haiyyaahhh okie practically miss my babylove.. hoping he was here talking on the pone with me

its 5 am in the morning.. i cant sleep wondering why.. its been few nights like this... whats wrong with my mind.. cant it stop thinking of tonz of problem... hate to cry alone in my room at night thinkin whats gonna happen next.. gosh... i feel so bad to babylove for lying... i cant stand this anymore... problem at home just cant stop... today is the worst.. its almost a whole day im nt sleeping... if babylove would finds out im super dead... siting alone with pc jus bored.. i need education and i need a proper decent job... WTH... cant i jus work admin or somthing... darn why isit so hard for me to get a bloody decent ladylite job... i keep yawning but i cant shut my darn freaking eyes... hw nice it wud be to have a beauty sleep.....







PS I LOVE Daniel

Okie here im blogging in the middle of night.. gosh.. . super bored... babylove cant meet me today as he have to many errand to run.. pity him and fad(melayu) hmm missing him alredy... haiyah wad to do so used to meet him everyday.. darn.. and nw im wathching my save the last dance... watching this is so reminded me hw do i met him.. gosh.... haha i aint no dancer and yada3.. hw he clear mess out of his friend.. and stuff..Some people hate seeing us together... even our ex-partners... gosh.... . and now helpin me to make my dream come true.. to have a degree in biomedical... gosh... this what the life i wanted... tis is my priority and next was baking and pastry... hmmm... babylove purposely worked he ass out just to help me... aww... and i dunnoe what i've seen in him.. gosh.. i jus dunnoe why.... but thats why i really love him

Okie im starting back with my indonesian thingy back which i dunnoe why.. i think it runs in the family... lol... totally love indon songs it rockx babe hmm.. pratically im nt werkin again today... and guess wad babylove wants me to quit my job.. ouh no... Darn injuries that comes and goes... hate my leg to the max... for once i just want to do the sports of my fav... like rockwall,netball and rockwall.. goshh... i don want to be lazy and make my butt big by jus sitting at home.. no!.... hmmm pratically now he have 2 jobs.... the 2nd 1 is a part time.... haiyo pity my babylove work like hell... hmmm okie.. tonight meeting him again at home.. pity him everyday have to meet me before he goes home...

practically i dunnoe why i so like into this relationship.. whenever i want to meet my friends he will tag along and whenever he wantes to meet his friend he tag me along.. its like we are always doing things together which im

The gifts


on the valentine day dinner


on my shade waiting for dinner


this was taken on monday when we are having dinner at subway


while he having fun eating 12inch subway


On friday waiting for him to fetch me fo supper


night on valentine

heyya 14 was fun gotta meet my lovely skulmate.. flore and herl... guess jus like before.. hehe.. okie pick something up at clementi babylove strawberry heart.. cooL.. it was nice though... hmm... okie received gift frm him.. we dun celebrate valentine but a belate anniversary i guess... hmm went al majlis the food was great but the service was upset... goshh.... hmm.. btw i miss my ex sec mate... lol.. hmm today stuck myself at home.. and i need a job that pays me well gosh... upsetiing.. hmmm... shall update the pic soon

this was taken last mth


On kak ikha engagement day.... hmm kinda long huh...


On sunday Aryan came for a visit and he had fun wearin songkok


When u told him to smile for the pic


The joy and laughter of four of us will never end


Abang and kakak


WHere is baby and kak yana.. haha only 6 of us


Soon mom and dad left with me and sis... if abg gets married.. lol


Reflection. while waiting for the rest to come


My lovely sib.... awww..


kakak and abg enjoying the tomyam and prawnssss!!



aLMOst done.. and baby hand still wanting to eat

Mom and dad taken by Lovely beloved Daniel

Sunday it a family day for me and babylove...
Gosh...
Had a splendid time with them.. it was mom and dad 29th anniversary... surprisingly abg and mama invite baby love... wow... NK kene strike lottery tu.. lol
hmm okie.. cut it short.. pictures will be updated later.. but now let talk abt engagement.. do you tink at the age of 19 is fast.. i dunnoe... eventhough im prepard but deres alot of people said its too fast... hmmm.... i dunnoe.. and im confused... gosh... We wanted to tell mom and dad abt this but im afraid they will reject it.. but how... hmm... like baby love said.. Restu mom and dad is the most important thing of all.. i asked my friend who is older den me.. but they said.. its too fast and told me to think properly again.... hmm... okie.. im prepard but wad im afraid its the next step.... engagement its not a thing like gf and bf... goshh... to many thing to be thinking.... but i hope the decission babylove made is right.. =)

Woke up as early as 7 to wake all my 3 men up.... hahaha... Baby the alarm clock... that what they define me as... gosh... hmm woke babylove first as he need to meet abg at home at 8.... so den woke up the twin as the other twin staying in the other part of singapore.. GOsh so cute to see all of them go gym together early in the morning.. the bonding between them getting real close.... This few days babylove is always spending his time here... Mom and dad really delighted when he come over.. gosh... i was so happy.... Instead of us going out and spend money we rather stay home and watch tv eat talk laugh and yada3.... hhahaha.. cooL huh... okie..

lets talked abt yesterday...
In was CNY okie town is partically closed but yet there's ppl walkin which i wonder why too yar.. hmm okie
What did i do yesterday.. let recall...
woke up babylove @1230 as he wanted to watch this show called bujang senang...
den by 3 plus he came over as abang want us to accompany him to mustafa to get the tolietries.... woaa..... it was so damn pack... while we were walking.. saw flore... hahha damn miss her la.. saw her mom too... hahhaa.. funn funnn.. hmmm.. den get our stuff and done with we proceed to orchard towers as abang want to eat.. So MODESTO!... yummy 20 inch pizza... hahahaha.... and yesh im a pizza lover u can give me pizza all month and im okie with eat... hahah pratically the motive is to spend quality time with the both of them.... gosh... they talk abt bike.. soccer and wrestling.. and im cooL with it.. thank god im nt left out... haha.... hmmm okie.. after dinner we head homee.... and abg bought his collection.. and tagg babylove to join his new hobby.. very rare for abg to talk to my bf usually.. but this 1.. like woahhh... can strike lottery horrr... hehehehe.... but im glad each and everyone can accept him... im glad.. and thankful.... =))


ouh ya... Haizz to take my biomedical science in MDIS i need A level.. gosh i really have to work my ass out.. after O level den to A level den to Degree in Biomedical... i pity him that have to pay.. gosh.... im sorry baby... gosh.. all my studies is him that gonna pay for it.. damn it... i feel so bad... but soon enough i gonna make him proud that i could pass with flying colours.... i really have to study...

hmm guess i gotta prepard breakfast for all... hehe...
ps. love u always

Since the day of dancing night
Night of sharing.. Night of joy and laughter
Night that we did stupid things...
A night with no string attach and now there is...
31 days have passed...
and days of moment together....
Finally im yours and you're mine...
Tremendous changes we made...
Unexpected to be expected....
Anger t0 smiles...
sadness to joy....
We found the way out of our souls....
Find the true love of my life..
Soon enough im totally yours and i have to be devoted to you
Surprise, surprise....
Unlikely to be said....
Things will go on smooth and i cant wait to be true....
White pure traditional dress on me with smiles....
A ring that both wear till the solemenation day.....
Love is pure...
Just listen to your heart beat...
Follow the rhythm says...
Truely love you