HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELO IRRATATING NOISY SIS'
can i have a brother in law in 2 years tym please hehehe
btw yeah may u enjoy ur day today kakak...



btw today another night without him at home...
now my nights have been so quite without him naggin and bubbling at me
no more that teasing with him.. haizz.. miss those thing that we used to have at home... and i miss smelling him before sleep.. haizz...
jus wishing that things will be jus like normal soon..
and baby i really love u alot and everysingle day...
it wont complete my days without u here with me.. haiyoo...
practically my whole day was super bored at home...
haiz wishing if i have the cash in hand back..
probally im nt at hm now...
spending my time shopping partyin... karaoke.. and fine dine...
gosh realising im a big spender overall...
This is what happen when im used to in adapting in a new things is kinda challenging for me...
mayb doing this is for a very good reason for some who is spendthrif like me...

Next week theres so many thing in mind
Abg lolo nikah... beach with eil and flo gosh...
haishhh so many in mind... and 14 school open and im so nervous and scared...
so anti social of me at school at ITEBB nw simei haiyo howwww......
can can die like that... arggghhhh
hope things turn out will for wad i expected...
btw im turning already tmrw need to wake up at 9

I write your name in the sand
it just gets washed away

I write your name on paper
and it gets thrown in the trash

I write you name on the school wall
the school washes it away

I write your name on my Hand and
arm it just gets washed away

I write your name in my
heart and forever it stays now
you have a peace of my heart now
your in my heart and there you will
stay within me.

Happy 3rd anniversary babylove...
To be with you is a gift for me..

ingat waktu kamu peluk aku
cium kedua pipiku
bilang kamu sayang aku
bilang kamu cinta aku
aku mulai menyadari
kamu yang paling berarti
aku tak ingin kau pergi
aku tak mau kau tinggal kan ku sendiri
aku kangen kamu sayang
masih kangen kamu sayang

okie enough of the indon thingy stuck in my head eversince i was small... even my family uncle speak indon with me instead of malay.. uncle vishwa please dun talk indo u talk like wak wak indo.. haha

OKie firstly today is Addyna birthday so happy birthday eein... =)
btw yesterday babylove came home late due to some reason at camp...
haizz... practically we only spend like few hours cause i went to meet flore at 7+..
miss her.. lol.. but had a great time chatting with her and stuff.. btw im supposed to be back by 10+ but ended up 11.45 oppss.. sorry baby...
Practically i just miss going out with him.... Haizz.. i need to get new shoes before schools start.. baby please take me to get my new school shoes... =)
So yesterday flore was late.. okie la not so late.. lol.. after meeting her we went dinner as im super hungry so ate at ayam penyet.. lol.. den ordered for her some prawn crackers and milo dinosaur.. which she love chocolate so muchhh hahaha.. den after that we went straight to NYDC for dessert... haha we had this Chocolate icecream with some cookies and stuff... lol... while we were talkin we saw amy winehouse look alike.. haha the hair the eyeliner.. gosh all the same.. haha.. wish i have a longer hair to make that kinda hair.. lol... but too bad i prefer my hair to be short as it easy to maintain and style... hate the boring old long hair.. which cant do much...
yesterday when i going out babylove went home @ ard 5+/6... but yeah..

So today what i do is clean the house as mom is coming back.. haha.. pity me.. before that went to ite simei to do my adminstrative stuff for my course... weweeee finally im back in school kickin my butt to study back.. i was surprise to get this course as it was a competitive course btwn the O lvl student... But i so gonna promise myself to study and get in a spot at poly.... i dun want to waste any last penny of his... lol... hope im doing him proud... (:

Just love my babylove so much... and hoping this bloody operation can make us lead like a regular life we used to have before this....

update the pics once flore send me all (:

TO my gfs... hurry pplan the outing cause i cant wait any longer.. miss u guys too muchh...

and my lovely bestie.... lets have dinner again please.... (:

Woke up by baby early in the morning... and he was kinda upset with me.. lol
but yeah i was plain old me who is damn hard to be waken up in the morning.. hehe
okie today we are suppose to visit mak.. but den baby is super tired... so we kinda like postpone it.. :) so while he is sleepin i was doin the laundry.. den Kakak is super hungry kept texting me and callin... eventhough we stay in the same house we tend to text or call each other if we are like far from one an other.. that is how lazy we are... lol... okie practically went to the ntuc to get some fish and squid... its kinda fun when cooking.. had some quarrels with sis while cooking the squid... ;) but it turn out nice.. den mine was steam fish.. its like kinda big feast we had today... as babylove got scolded from kakak cause he's to shy to eat with kakak and eeinn... lol but was a great feast though... it was nice... ;)
Btw babylove is back in camp... lol his present have always keep me company all the time... (:
Mayb the reason why i love him so much is cause he just love to pamper me in a different way...

Hmmm havent have a really proper post this few weeks.. lol
btw yeah i miss my babylove... his currently working and gonna see him in the morning hope he is off tmrw so that we could go out or something.... =)
Btw i miss mom and dad so as babylove.. been amth already they are at jakarta.. and they plan to stay there haizz.. here we go.. goin back thru and flo singapore and jakarta... aduii... btw babylove have been a helping hand since my parent is away.. he took over their place.. Like buy me food understand the situation i goin thru.. wake me up in the morning and nags at me to bathe.. hehe...

Here is the man that i truely love and he is very vain...


Btw today we had breakfast together.. woke up as early as 930 to order my fav hotcakes from macd.. as usual both is to lazy to prepare our very own neither goin to the macd to dine in.. so we called the 67773777... lolx.. actually im suppose to order but too sleep to open my eyes so i pass the phone to him to call them hehe... so yeah our breakfast arrive real fast... @10 we ate the breakfast den talk a lil and back to bed till 1 pm.. hehe so the alligator.. hehe... After that he went home to take his things den to work... pity pity him...



Btw i miss my gfs and bestie... hope im free enough before schools start...

Btw this is us now... While i was busy bloggin he is busy taking pics.. lol

Im so in need of new phone and I need my very own laptop.. hate sharing with sis and dad... eventhough there pc at home but i still want my very personal laptop for myself..

Either i want the sidekick phone or the new sony ericsson x1

Either i want vaio or acer or compact....

Look into my eyes
What do you see?
Is it a tortured soul?
Or is it just me..

I swear I'll be OK
You don't have to worry about me
Because every time I think
You're all that I see

There are a few things I need to say
There are a few things I want you to know
There are reasons for you to stay
There are things I wish to show

Like the love that's in my heart
Like the pain I feel for you
When you seem to be falling apart
I don't know what to do

Please just call on me
Whenever you're in doubt
Because I'll let you see
That you can scream, that you can shout

So just take your hand in mine
And lets look up at the sky
Lets forget about the time
And together, our souls shall fly...

Terperangkap di dalam ke kegelapan diri
Semakin hari semakin bermasalah
Tidak mampu menurus hidup ini
Hari demi hari semakin sulit untukku menghadapinya
Kenapa ini selalu harus ku lalui
Mengapa hidupku tidak seperti biasa
Aku bukannya boneka atau robot
Samapi bila harus aku melalui semua cabaraan ini
Aku tidak mahu menyusahkan dia
Kerana aku tidak mahu dia berfikir layanan
Kadang kala bila ku termenung
Aku bernganis bersendirian kerana
aku tidak kuat to memikulnya
Masalah ini sudahku menghadapi bertahun
Bila kah ia kan berhenti

Bloging while u are asleep (=

In the crowded room
feeling alone where theres noone
When u starts to whisper to my ears
And see ur breath in the air
Its made me toll
head to the showers
cause i dont want you to see me cry
felt like its a crime to me
whenever im starting to miss you
feeling like this love just like a poetry
Poetry thats is full of lovely words
and most things have to be rhyme
Never can be change
where all the feelings hide behind those words
Its jus like the same i hide my feeling toward you
where i never show but loving you is too stupendous.....
=)
ILY babylove

Woke up this morning to an ordinary day
City’s still moving just the same as yesterday
I’m still waiting for this all to make some sense to me
what I’m here for and just who I’m suposse to be
Could it be maybe we, are moving in circles
Could it be maybe we, will never find the answers
It’s so hard to be strong not knowing where I’m headed
Maybe if you get this, you could show me a sign
So many dreams that have yet to come true
I’ll take the time, you show me what to do
I get so lost, searching for something that I can’t see
I’ve tried so hard, but it’s getting to the best of me
Never wanting to be apart from you
As its frigthen me to till at the very last end
Knowing that you always be by myside each moment
Built my strenght to move in my life
Somehow i still think
I never good enough for you
As there alot for me to correct in me
Just feel so breatheless
Cause losing you is like living in a world with no air
You really mean so much to me in this world
Seeing you smile and laugh
It will be just enough to make my day jus right (=
And i wont want to wondering around without you
Loving you always in my heart babylove

Im back on blog again...
Damn misses him so badly till i purposely just find fault with him
What a bad gf i am to him....
All the planned have to be cancelled due to the activation even tomorrow...
How sad...
Im too addictive to him...
and i so lucky to have him in my life
who always cared about me every single sec..
Gosh this is the reason why i cant go overseas study....
i cant simply bare to be apart from my love one...
If i would go also.... Then im in a shitto..
Hope this thing end soon...
Cause terribly obessed by him...
Is this what true love really means?
just cant bare to be apart with babylove..
Which is my precious gift ever get...

text from baby
made me cry...
Soobb..
Hope thing goes on smoothly for him there
and hope tmrw we could meet... soobbxx
Misses him so much...
gosh but im proud of him cause he doing this for the nation too....
wonder how am i suppose to sleep today...
or wake up in the morning...
so used to see him beside me when i woke up...
and im so used to have him to put me to sleep....
haizz...

here we go.. baby had been activated last min.. soobxx...
Suppose to go and watch movie and chill together...
Miss spending time with him apart from at hm only le....
But it was so touched when he whispered to me saying sorry...
When i know it not his fault at all...
I understand the situation and his job....
I cant possibly get mad or pissed off cause of this..
Practically im nt mad neither pissed off..
But felt like teary out....
Weird isnt it... mayb cause things have been set but didnt turn out..
hmm.. but no matter what i have to adapt with this....
Cause this is part and parcel of his work... =)
But i just love to hear him say that he will missed me till he meet me later on the day....
and never stop say that he love me....
But its hard for me to spell it out to him
That how much i love him and misses him each and everyday
Bloody ego that i have...
Just love to hear him every morning saying he goin to work
love to see him come home and told me to sleep..
and love him so much when he took care of me when im in pain
in the middle of the night he would jus say "sshhh... sleep baby.. come and sleep with me ayte"
and return back my bear so that i will not cry in pain.. =)
He is so my everything now....
cant wait to see him come home tomorrow....


PS i love you sweetheart

Always remember what we've had
Late nights spent cruising around
Gazing at the vivid city's lights
Until we reached our favorite spot
Watching lovers snuggle on the cold breeze
As their lips eagerly meet.
I could never describe the depth
On how sad I will become
On how my life would be so empty
Wakin up in the morning
Knowing that it was like a dream
For you will no longer be
The nearest person
I know I could always turn to
And it would hurt me endlessly
For no matter how loud
You'll shout my name
It will never reach to my ears
As you will be sitting
Far away across the sea
My pen will get dry
But for as long as I breathe for you
Words will continue to flow
You won't be able to read those
I know, so I'll whisper on the wind
All the words my heart carve for you
Until the day, until the next I will see you

Can i just walk away from the problem i have?
Been keeping all in me...
can i just lead a normal life
Just like an ordinary girls do.
Why do i have to handle all this alone
Is this the challenge that i have to face thru
But i won't give up
What i have incomplete
I will complete it no matter how long it will be
eventhough those sleepless night that i have
Have been bothering me
But im glad to have someone who always making myday
Eventhough he always been here for awhile
I always never want people to know what im facing thru
Maybe cause i never like to share my problem with people.
Gosh...

Ecplise has cover all the ray
The ray that suppose to brigten up the sun
The thirst without truth
I can't manage to live it thru
Can't possibly continue
Let it go and im willing too
To left it all a question in my mind
Nevetheless of questioning you why
why is this all happening to me
Never wanted to feel so helpless in my life
Eventhough i can't bare it
But i never want to say it quit
Maybe theres no path that i can walk thru
Am i suppose to leave in a world of games
But, i wade speculations that hit
The patience that wade the specular
Came true
Thank to him
To let me love someone who is sincere to me
The pillar of strength that help me to walk high
He has given me, all his heart
But a question that still playing
Why do you love me so much
But that didn't stop me to love him as much as possible
Being thru alot of things ups and downs
He still brings me to the right path that i'm suppose to walk too.
The darkness in my heart has been shine
So the sun that have no ray have been lighten up
A felicitous moment has always been part of life
Soul full of joy that i had
It's gracious that i found him and wanted him to be a part person of my life.
Goodness gracious loving him is like a gift of diamonds.
Now he part of me and i never want to let go.
= ))

You got my heart
To keep
And to hold
Don't make it weep,

I feel helpless
When your not there
I need you in my life
Because you care,

I would never want to lose you
You're my sweetheart
You're the love of my life
I cant stand to be apart,

You're my love
You're my life
You're my happy ending
You're my lifelong partner,

Your there for me
Your there told hold me
You're not always there in person
You've let me be,

We have stupid fights
Bad Times and good
Always together
Only if we could,

Being together
The best of the best
Loving you
Adds a little zest,

I never want to
Ever lose you
Thats a nightmare
A thought onto,

My mind spins
I'm falling in love
A magical thing
Its like a dove,

A dove in the sky
Floating above
Waiting for its
True love.

Never be a true love
if theres no pure love
both combined together
and they become everlasting love

The everlasting love
Come from the heart
The heart of gold
Brings a happy lovers together as one.

Babylove,
to be truth to you im not a person who is always showing love by talking but i write out my feeling to show how much i love you... I do not know how to express in conversation.... the truth is i'm someone who love to write and show is thru my word..
But im glad that you always showered me with you love and never fail to put a smile on my face evethough i cant be pain in the a** sometimes.... You never just leave me alone for a second.. You have always been by myside ever since the start of the relationship.... I just cant simply wait to be your and break the joyful news with mom and dad.... And i never never will hate you in my life...
ILY so muchhhh

Spending too much time with him
gosh im starting to miss him already...
now mom put trust on him to take care of me when they are away....
Do worry we dont do stupid things when my mom is away...
cause to see mom tearing is the worst sin that i would ever do....
btw the love of him make my bond with my family closer....
eventhough im much much more pampered now...
but things will still be the same...
Cut my hair again today.. .darn i looked like "ahlian"
gotta grow my hair alrdy....
this few days that u spent my time with him is as though wea re married couple...
cooked,clean,watch tv, go to the groceries together.. darn it...
away from him a few minutes i feel so lost.. gosh.. what am i suppose to do....
haiz.. but over all i feel so blessed that i have him in my life who is always taking good care of me... and eventhough i have alot of problem but having a wonderful family full of crap is great... =)) love being around all 8 of them including my babylove... =))

I miss my mom and dad
I miss my babylove
I miss the catering Kiddos
I miss my Gfs and bfs
I miss my smss love....
I miss does people who where there for me when im sadd and cheered me up
I miss dancing.....
I miss my silat.. darn

practically been stuck at home for awk plus already didnt go out.. darn... i so need a job... and i really need my babylove now... damn it... this whole weeks he have been busy working... reason cause he dont want me to work and he will bare all my expenses.. i feel so bad.. real bad... darn it... why cant u just let me work and know more about it... Lately thing btwn me and him getting more closer and better.... even worst 2 more weeks before we gonna tell mom and dad the truth.... haizz.... btw i love my life now and no more hustle like before.. its just that i need to worry about school......
ILY my babylove