Love
Shining peacefully
Reigning gracefully
Paths combined harmoniously
Absolute commitment
Supreme bliss
Divine emotions
Everlasting happiness

*Reflect*

Happiness everlasting
Emotions divine
Bliss supreme
Commitment absolute
Harmoniously combined paths
Gracefully reigning
Peacefully shining
Love you hubbylove...



When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is caring
Whos friendly
And whos a true friend

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is a true friend
One who is there to listen
Who respects you for you
And whos a faithful boyfriend

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
But a boy that is an amazing boyfriend
One who will do anything just to see your beautiful smile
Who will make you laugh until your stomach hurts and cant breath
And who has a heart full of love for the girl in his heart

When I look at you
I dont just see some boy
Nor just a friend
Or an amazing boyfriend
But instead
I see all three

I Love You hubby!




HAPPY 9th Monthsary B!



Eventhough you are not here with me but that doesnt mean i dont remember the day today.. Knowing you are totally busy, you have always shower with full love.... Today marked the 9 mth with you and i never regret every moment with you.. Yes, lately misunderstanding and problem may occur but we have always been fixing it and all... Soon gonna be Raya and i cant wait to seek forgiveness from you and the family and friends.... You have been such a great boy to me getting whatever i need eventhough i gotta wait.. but still you will ended up getting them for me.. :) I you always say there is no reason why we love each other.. Love in gradually come by itself and a strong communication is always important... Your love have been always enough for me.. But i guess... all i need more is ur presence and attention... I totallly love you hubbylove~ please to take those away for a moment even...



ouh ya on the night of raya i gonna send some food over to his place as mom order somethings for them... :)

This Becomes So Hard
To Me You'll Be Surprised
Your Back To The Real Me
No Jugde Me If Your Right
Cause When I Dance With You
I Will Speak The Truth
Now You Make Me Lose

i took this from a song new classic from another cinderella story :)
and the song remind how i met him.. from dance to nature of love and what we have been thru.. And now he wants me to chase after my dreams.. eventhough dancing my passion but baking is an art of life :)
Hubby have been working late lately.. damn i miss the moment with him

Goshh hubby love is on duty again.. arghhh
sigh...
Btw lately i been shopping non stop.. and yeah.. soon me and mom is gonna hunt for my shoes and bags for lebaran haha.. lol...
And of course searching for the 2 boys baju kurung is not easy indeed... sighh.. especially when goin there with mom and dad.. as they are very choose about the material and all... sighh.. biler la pacarku and abgku berbaju baru hehe... lol..
So today i break-fast all alone at home while mom and dad have some errand to run.. soobx...
Ouh ya not mentioning yesterday when i went to gelyang with mom,dad and bro... i bought new baju kebaya again haha.. lol and its black again.. wahh in my closet its full of black baju kebaya.. i have 4 of them now.. damn.. im so gonna dead.. haha.. and yes mom bough somthing in white hehe.. so yeah finally.. but i need my room renovation.. when is it gonna be done mom dad.. sigh.. but this year is a memorable year as everyone is coming over here in the noon.. as its mom birthday.. so yeah.. first day of raya wad we planned visit granny over at uncle place den all gonna come over here.. and yes that include you hubby... please do come ayte.. :) btw also mom is gonna cook a feast.. like kerutup, sambal goreng, ayam kurma, tulang and many more weeee... wahh busy la me like that in the kitchen like a mad girl... first day full of thing.. but 2nd till 4th and so it will silence... as mom and dad is flying again and hubbylove gotta go to brunei.. sigghh
so i hope things will keep me busy here... afterwhich bro and sis is also busy working....
But this year me,sisters and the bros is gonna be all in the same colour like years years ago... all in BLACK while mom and dad will be in Peach in colour and yes this year lil nipote EMILY is joining haha.. btw i cant wait for the duit raya.. haha im not working and im still a student okie.. hahaha.. 2 more years den i gotta start giving hahaha.... but most important is seeking forgiveness with all of them and hoping to meet the cousins and all and hope mom family that is wrecked will be fixed... as people always said that during hari raya ppl tend to realise their mistake... :)
But yeah and i hope that i could meet the gfs and bfs so we can all jln raya... :)

btw flore and shie.. let go tanning again pleaseeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

Wondering why i have mixed emotion..
Felt like crying, felt lost, felt sad, felt disappointed, felt hopeless, felt confuse.. i do not know...
Arghh.. maybe due to the yesterday incident?
Whatever fcuk it is.. i wish this could settle pretty soon... i cant go on like this.. Hiding every single things and trying my best to put on a smile with my friends and hubby... damn it... i really hate this kinda feelings. Even worst it ended up with a sleepless night.. i did not sleep till 6am in the morning and i gotta wake up as early as 10 to do the house chores before leaving.. so yeah.. went to meet Flore and Shieling for tanning... Spending the time with them make me forget about what had happen for awhile.. but after which i tend to think abt it again... Feeling to drink also have.. but i ended up smoking non stop till both of them make so much noise.. yeah girls i only smoke that much when im caught in situation... Sorry ladies.. but overall we talked alot.. we tanned till we fell asleep under the sun.. and my dear flore u are pretty tanned already... okie... haha shie.. shall we go tann till we totally tanned? hehe.. okok i shall upload all the photo till flore send it all.. but here are lil of it.. :)
Sooner im looking forward to go out with my 2 pri sch buddies.. which is debbie and shima ;)


HAVING THE BEN AND JERRY ICE CREAM YUMMY


THREESOM


See she is much much more tanner den me.. arghh

Super paranoid girl i am..
yes.. which girl is not paranoid if the love one never call at all.. and even worst saying that he/she is coming home at this this hours....
Damn it.. im scared as i ever encounter such things and something bad happen.. which i dun ever want to hear... darn it...
Hmmm
btw hubbylove love is over at station again..
darn i miss him..
yeah even just bloody 2days but still im so used to have him around me..
Yes i love him totally.. till i dont want him to be out of my sight...
Nothing could be the same without him...
eventhough the up and down...
but still the next day when we wake up everythings seem a new day...
that is wad we are..
Loving him and recieving his love is already enough to put up a smile on my face...





Yearning to be with you more each day,
as time passes, the only person I want is you.
Wanting to feel your soft touch on my skin-
the warmth of your body against mine...
gorgeous eyes gazing deeply into our future.

Butterflies overwhelm me within as they-
make my heart flutter amidst every beat.
Those sugar-coated words that sound so sweet-
when you say them to me; makes me want to melt.
The thoughts of you just keep continuing.

I love you, slips from lips that have yet to be touched-
by the one she believes is her true soul mate; her love.
My lips are becoming dry, as they miss you terribly.
Eagerly awaiting your sweet kiss to make them wet.
Nothing will ever change this dream of being with you.

Hold me tightly in your arms, protect me forever.
I find myself falling harder for you, will you catch me?
You mean something to me that nobody has before-
I keep searching for those words that will explain...
but your unforgettable presence has me distracted.

Stay with me forever, hold me tight, never release me.
Keep me close, as I never intend to let you leave.
There's one thing that I know for certain however,
and that is...that you had me at hello.

Artist:Howie Day
Title: Collide




The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Shall i just switch the light off?
Shall i just keep myself in silent...?
Deciding.........

Those smile
Those tears
Those joy
Those sorrow
Those laughters
We been thru alot up and down
Arguement and happiness
Hardship and enjoyable life..
all that we been thru...
and yet soon we gonna hit that 9...
and yes... that 9...
i will be looking forward to the 12,13......20....30....40...55... and so and soo...
eventhough i have not been working.. but i just wish that all while i have given u wad i can...
yesh i noe i still owe u a birthday gift.. be patient ayte hubbylove...
Trust me the gift which u expect will be out soon :)
I noe it super belate and totaally gonna be basih....
but i really hope to get a job soonn damn it so hard to get 1.... :(

V/s 1

Termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
tak mampu ku melupakan
walau kian kehilangan

v/s 2

kerna ku terlalu ingin kan
untukmu riang berkekalan
rela ku berlalu
walau mungkin tak termampu

v/s 3

Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti
tak ingin saling di lukai
kedaifan ini
menjadi penghalang sanubari

c/o

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin akan ku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

bdge

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

v/s 4
termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
moga kau mengerti
bila nadi ku terhenti

Opps been awk i last upadate... gosshhhh
Firstly HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY....

The 2nd day of puase i left bf all alone in SG while i went KL with mom n dad for 2d3n trip... damn i miss him like hell... i heard stories about him here.... okie this is the first and last im gonna heard all this... the next time.. i really gonna explode... Eventhough i can be blinded by love but dun ever test the water in me.. i can be those soft hearted girl but i can be as mean as a cruel step mother... trust me u do not want to see that side of me... cause u will regret... I trust u fully... and i dont want you them them away from me.. the next time im gonna have a trip im gonna dragg u along.. No stories no nothing... Its not that i want to accuse anyone in this.. sigghhhh... argghh.. damn it la... enough og this crapp...

Btw yesterday i met hubbylove over at cineleisure as yea it my treat to treat him over at pastamania... :) sluurrppp i love my seafood tomato pasta... :) hmm after which we were hunting for some tops but cant get any... we were searching for topshop and topman over at orchard but could not get any of it... damn.. but in the end we rode all the way to bugis to buy 4topman top and my topshop tank top... lol... i bought 3 topman xs for my lovely spoilt bratt sis and 1 topman m for hubbylove and my tank top ;)... hmm happy.. haha spend momma money like water.. haha... hmmm den otw back home saw hid.. my pri sch mate asking me if i'm working... haha den i say no im not workin.. become taitai at home hahha.... taitai eh.. duduk rumah tak tau diam taitai giler arhh hahha... hmm den we rode to lau pa sat as bf is craving for bbq wings while im i wanted to go newton to eat stringray... but in the end we were at lau pa sat eating them.. okie la the stringray but not llike wad i expected.... sigghhh.. hmmm but overall day with him was great... :)