I seem couldnt help hubby with the problem that he faces.. firstly... im not working and its hard for me to talk abt money... haizz.. and secondly i dunnoe wad to say apart being a listening ears to him... actually i have something to say it just wont let them out... as im afraid that he doesnt like it... haiz.. why am i hard to talk things out or to give my piece of mind.... i always take it a light thing and eventhough i know that im right... i will always say im wrong... damn it... no matter what it takes nothing seem can be right... btw i can never run away from problem and i wish i could help hubby if im working and finacially stable... and hubby have done so much for me.. and now i got to help him if he need my help.. guess i shudnt wait any longer to get myself a part time job... i really in need of a job ryte now.... i couldnt help it already....

Happy 5 monthsary Hubbylove

To be with you is all i wanted..
To spend all my days and time with you
And i will look forward for the upcoming years and months to come...
I have been loving you eversince the very first day that we have been together....
you have been the light on my sunny sunshine
and you have the that gilters to my stars....
So Loving you is always the piority and leaving you never exist in my life....



So hope you had a good day with me jus now....

Love you always....

I have been an emotional day for me today...
Maybe cause too much of pressure that i have of my own
Called hubbylove just now.. and yeah i miss him... its only 2 day and i miss him like hell... He have been my pillar all this while, a place that i can complaint, whine and share my problem with... Seriously today its seem like its not me... haiz... i never behave i like i used too.. arghh why am i so pressured.... hate this feelings... knowing that i cant do much now.. making me to push my very own limit to work harder to be fit like i used to be.... damn.. but i dun want to disappoint them again... of my stupid reaction... but till wen am i suppose to be like... i want to old hyper active NAZRIA! who played sports like there no tmrw and juggle school in same time.... haiz.. how i wish i was the old me like years ago... hope to recover and back to sports....


to daniel ily, you so much... and hope to see you soon.. i really miss you...

Its already 1 plus and i missing my love... gosh.. been almost aweek that we are not sharing everything together eversince mom n dad at home.. gosh.. but the good news is that my bf is gonna out of the operation already wohhoooo.. love love love.. i can have him all the time now.. actually i have him most of the time already but its okie i cannot leave him... lol like his mom say"korg asik nk berkepit je.. kalau tak berkepit tak sah" hehhe but yea that is me... i love to cling to my bf.. i cant let him go either stop kissing him hehe.. seriously.. he have been making me shine smile cry and advise me in all sort of ways.. i truely love him man.. which i dunnoe why... the power of love to him is so strong its seem that i cant be control.. gosh.. im purely obesses by his love himself and everything abt him... HUbbylove you have been such a darla to me.. and i never want it to stop even a sec... love love love u so much.... please dun stop showering the love that we have now.... cause i treasure them in everysingle way....

counting the day of the anniversary and his birthday.. gosh cant wait for him to turn 20.. gosh... hubby you getting older already.. .gosh.... and yeah... and hope to see him soon later in the evening.. cant wait to meet him later... he have 2 days off and tmrw i hope he will fetch me from school.... :)


You asked me last night if I loved you
I thought my emotions were plain to see!
I want to make sure you know
Just how much you truly mean to me:

If I only had one more day on Earth
I'd spend it with you, just holding on tight
I love you more with every breath I take
When I'm with you everything is right.

I love feeling your breath on my neck
Do you see this smile upon my face?
Did you know that you keep it there?
It's one I'll never be able to replace.

If I had ten thousand mouths, I'd
Kiss you with every single one
And if I had ten thousand arms, I'd
Hug you and start over when I got done.





Drowning slowly in your sparkling eyes
Diving soothingly in mighty indigo ocean
Floating smoothly on gently lashing waves
Washing out blues in pearly marine waters

Flying high across midnight's moonlit skies
Straying among stars in a distant milky way
Gliding towards galaxies of bright celestial lights
Letting all troubles disappear in faraway darkness

Echoes of blissful whispers spreading in the air
Melodies of joy harmonizing serenity of lives
Wondrous times outlast, eradicating all fears
Warm embraces of love lasting throughout nights

Drawing into raptures over your angelic presence
Ravishing smiles bloom like blossoms of sweet roses
Wandering along bewitching trails with great pleasure
Romancing hearts surrendering to supreme forces of love


love you in every single bits and pieces...

Things was super great the day before
Tears drop when u came and see me at home
i was too afraid of the incident happen to me earlier today
This incident make me realise somthing abt me
and reason of u stopping me cause my body just to weak
now i understand my body.. and now i realise how to appreciate my life more...
With you around me and have been taking care of me for the past few months regardless of anything even just a minor one its already a big deal to you....
You never give up on me... eventhough i was so stubborn... but instead of that you make sure i have learn my lesson...
I know i made you worried like mad and make you gone speechless... eventhough my mom and dad do not bother on the situation i face in.. but you did.. at least i know there is still someone who care for me apart from my second bro who rush to see my condition.. i love both of you... you both seem to be really care abt me than my own parent....
I promise such things will never happen again... and such things will never repeat and will never hide everysingle detail of me to you... i promise.. i really do....
and to yeok and fadzz... i really love u both too... thanks for the concern abt me... and yeok thanks for everything....
HUbbylove i promise to you that i will take care of my health and never make you worried about this anymore... and i wish u could forgive me...

Glass hailed from the sky tonight
I couldn't hide to save my life.
Standing drenched from open wounds.
You took my hand, and pulled me through.

I want to give you everything
I'll give you my all because you gave me
You gave me your lips
a gentle kiss
the medicine to cure my pain

Listen to all this glass shatter.
Once pierced my ears and made them bleed.
Now sounds so beautiful
Cause you're beautiful.
You're beautiful.

You are just so sweet to me
Nothing can be sweeter than your love
You gave me all the best in your
You cure those pain that bleed
You understand me the most.
Apology to be made if i ever hurt you in other way
Just you that all i care
just wont want to shatter the broken glass that you gave me...

My heart holds many secrets,
Too many to ever tell.
The good, the bad, the ugly,
Of when we rose and when we fell.

But here are some secrets,
Im willing to share,
Its my heart in five emotions,
Five emotions, I want to share.

Happiness is the first,
Elation, glee and joy,
It makes me dance a happy jig,
It makes me feel coy.

Confusion is the second,
See Im at a loss for words.
I dont really know if this is normal,
I think Id rather not know than be hurt.

Fear is the third,
You see its all moving fast.
I dont know how to take it,
To grab on before its passed.

Excitement is the fourth,
Im bouncing with suspense,
What will happen now?
Waiting to know has made me tense.

The fifth and final emotion,
Is by far the best youll see,
Its the fruit of my heart, my core, my strength,
It is all my tender love for thee.



The midnight sun,
casts a shadow on thy face.

I turn your head,
so my love will look me in mine eyes.

As we look into the depths
of each others eyes.

I move closer,
to my love.

And in unison,
we embrace,
each other,
in a kiss.

A kiss that will,
surly,
make me blush.

Thing is so weird without him around me at home.. Mom is back at home.. and all of us is back to the same things... yeah mom and dad have no object of him staying with us provided they are away... so if they are here mean things back to the way it suppose to be... im in not so comfortable when mom and dad back in singapore... lol... i noe this is kinda rude.. but yeah im so used to have them away and like they are only back here for awk or so and back to jakarta.. which i have no idea of why.... but yeah... for wad i noe mom and dad want to migrate to jkt while me and the rest stays here.. .ohh maybe my elder bro will follow them... idk... hmmm... but prefectly i want things btwn me and him to be quick so that i can have my own life and not depending on them that much... but hubbylove have been such a great bf to me... or not shall i say we dun treat each other as bf and gf we treat each other like normal married couple did.... He have been a great listening ears to me.. this 5 mth wasnt that real bad as wad i can say... i do still love him as like we first met.. whenever im alone or sitting by myself thinking abt how we met and stuff... its kinda sweet and memoriable things to be remembered.... gosh... like he said to me.. before u knew me.. u was so thin.. and now.. theres weight on you... and its good.. :) yeah i noe that he have been feeding me good food good things and my life is happier now.... Its just enough him alone to make my day. No matter how we argue and stuff i still love him.. we can never run away from misunderstanding and arguement.... But no matter what he is the only person i always wanna look upon everyday.. I miss my hubby love... gosh... hope to meet him real soon...

Falling against the sunrise
Pure love coursing through my veins
laying under these radiant skies
counting stars, pointing out planes.

All i want is to be here
surrounded by you
Free of pain, anguish and fear
knowing every word or feeling is true

Lost in your lullaby
soothed by your heartbeat
in your arms that keep me safe and dry
the words coming from the heart never sounded as sweet


A twist of my wrist,
& a peck on your cheek,
I'm not so oblique,
As to be obliged to Dance at a ball.

Hurry & come rescue me,
Save me from life's obscenity's
Dangle diamonds before my eyes,
Rest assure i do not want your Butter nor chives.

If i wanted a Wendy's deal Id buy my own,
I wish to hope you'd by me a stone,
To prove your undying affection,
A little bit of mystery for a girl so Interesting.

I say This magic moment,
Tantalizing & obscure,
Never felt any music,
But now you are for sure.

Clouded remedies to provoke a girl to scream,
A finger on her ring,
Oh my how lovely it is,
An with only a flick of my wrist.



She cried when he left,
she cried when he came back,
she held him in her arms oh so very tight,
she loves him and she does not want to fight,
people don't want them together,
but he is what she wants,
she cries when he isn't there,
she bleeds inside and nobody sees,
what does she do with this tough love?
keep it going? Break it off?
They want each other,
till the end of time,
love does not fade so her love is here to stay,
she cried when he said baby i love you,
i promise to never leave,
she always believed he is the one who completes her,
so now,
she is happy,
and he now knows he completes me.


Those was written from deep inside... Hubbylove its only you understand me the most... and i appreciate your company and your listenings ears all this while... You always make my day and i do not want them to end cause of my stupidity of choosing my path of life... and your advise is always be treasured... I could not take it to leave you... Its just so hard... I will see you once im home later from my day out ayte... love love love you!!!!!!

My heart can never stop beating for you...
But why cant the voice of my heart speak out
I been keeping and hiding them inside...
I was to afraid to scared to voice them out..
The only way to control them and hide them from you was crying
Every tears that flowing that show that i wanting to tell you something deep inside but im just afraid...
Loving you is all i want to do..
Leaving you is the last thing and worst things i wouldnt want to face...
Those things u said to me makes me shattered to tears...
Its not matter of why i want to work there for...
It just that they understand my situation better..
But when u said that u concluded that once i start working there we become "0"
I was to scared to even turn back...
Im not that strong girl like other i shall confess that im weak
I give in most of the time...
Cause i alway think that seeing someone happy or giving some the happiness or satified someone im happy...
I do not care how much sweat or tired am i suppose to get but this what am i...
All this while you have been everything to me...
You are my love, bestfriend, sister,brother, boyfriend, mom. dad even nurse and doctor to me...
I really love you so much..
And never want to leave the side of you also...
With what you said yesterday to me.. It was a shocked of my life that make me shattered to tear nonstop...
But I thank you for making me realise all this while i have to value myself first before others....
And i promise i wont work at that place anymore....
You just me the world to me....



loving you always and never ending

This coming monday or wed me and deehottie is gonna bake cupcakes... yupiieeee...

haha actually she is nasser gf but we get closer when nasser now busy workin hehe...

COol.. we share recipe almost most of the time hehe.. We even talk to open online fashion...

There i will be needing my skill of photoediting.. and yada3... even open market to all...

wow.. since im not allowed to work.. i shall work this from home... and yes online shopping is making money... but there is always pro&cons for this kinda line... yeah.. dee is always wanting to have her own fashion line as for me i always wanting to have my own resturant for people to taste wonder of food esp. the dessert which very one would love to have for ever single meal... She will be setting up the clothingline while i will do the pastry side example... Cupcakes, cakes and yada3... but first and for most we are looking at the budget that gonna be place...



Yesterday was such a hectic day for full of emotion and tears... I was pretty upset yet this things is happening again... I do not want to focus on my job and neglect my studies again.. why does this always happening.. eventhough bf is helpin me but i do not want it to be such a trouble to him... All this while i been neglectin myself even.. even my face i wont bother to take care like i used to take care of them... shit... wrong product jus damage my face... now need to work those back... Thank goodness now bf is allowing me to work back but not to the catering side nor the restuarant side... Yeah i know once i work i do not bother about the rest... I will just work and work... To stablize in anysort of way.. trust me im a work like theres tmrw... for cca wise i gotta pick 1 and go for only 1.... mayb not rc.. mayb will jus join netball.... apart from that i pretty much seekin for jobs... i will never neglect my studies now.. iwant to get my ass to poly.. and i will work things out for all those... my dreams. my life and my hubbylove.... this is the most thing pf my life now....

Night without him...
gosh i feel super different
No salam for goodnight...
No goodnight kisses
No goodnight Huggs.
Gosh im used to having him around me
Used to have him put me to sleep.
A day without him make me realise that he is the one who i need all the time
For the happiness..
The saddness
The cuddle
The merajuk
The pamper...
And last but not least the scolding and nagg
which i always have everynight and everyday

To hear the sound of your laugh
makes me laugh, too.
To watch you smile,
makes me want to smile with you.
When I see you cry,
I need to make you stop.
When you feel like you're at the bottom,
I want to lift you to the top.
There are times when you're upset,
and I want to make you feel better.
And all the nights you're alone,
I want us to be together.
I love you more than anything,
you know that it's true.
There's no way on Earth,
I could live without you


The more,
I get to know you,
The more,
I fall in love.
Men will come and go,
but you will be above.
You mean so much to me,
I will always love you so,
Hold my hand forever,
and please don't let me go.
Rock me with your arms,
hold me with your feet,
when I look in your eyes,
my heart seems to skip a beat.
The more we are together,
the more I start to smile.
Our love will last forever,
and travel more than a mile.

The moment that u come home i gonna hug u.. kiss u... and kiss u like there is no tmrw...ITs just to hard for me to be part from you.. As u mean the whole to me already.... Love love u hubbylove

Do kesenian runs in my bloody?
I think so...
Im seems to be intrested in dance silat and culture things..
Arts seem to be nice everywhere i see.
The seni is form of very delicate move of every gerak geri.
I used to love to write puisi in another form which shall i say malay poem or poetry.
But as times passby my malay is getting worst.. i never failed my malay since i was pri sch till i was sec3. I was dissapointed enough that i failed my End year of sec and N level.. What a same of me.
The reason why i failed them is cause of i lost intrested in them.
But that doesnt stop me to love my seni.
I was active back then in silat, tarian, contemp dance and gamelan.
But then after which i was so busy with work and loads problem
I cant continue them
Afterwhich till now.
Injuries weakness point i lose them all.
My movement of the structure also i have lost them all...
But if there was given a chance back.
I would want it to be happening again
Just like the old me in silat,tarian,dance and gamelan.....

Bound by love
The tears in your eyes
My heart is beating
Way out of time
And if I look at you now
Will you look back to me?
Or be afraid to see
The love in my eyes?
For I wish this love to never end
Tis hard to speak
When you are with me
You know I love you

Thoughtfully I wake up
Every morning with you in my mind
I think about seeing you again
I need to be with you
I want to see you
I try my hardest to make an excuse
To see you once more
Like a ray of light in the summer breeze
You hang in my mind so beautifully
For you to be so far away
Is maddeningly dissapointing
My heart stops
When I picture myself without you

Sometimes you pretend
To be happy and joyful
I listen to what is truly there
And try to keep your sadness controlled
Most of your sadness fades away
Sometimes my nerves of steel
Are strained and bent and about to break
Tears sometimes fly to my eyes
When the pain becomes too much
But then I look to you
And hold you close to keep you warm

I want to sing to you
The way I always sing
When I am alone
Never knowing exactly how
Just singing what my heart feels
My songs remind me of you
They tell a story of my love for you

I laugh when I look at myself
It's like I'm being rained on so much
But I love the rain and the cloudy gray skies above
Almost as much as I love you

I'll Be The One To Love You.
When You're Feeling Sad And Blue
I'll Be The One To Help You When
The Roads Are to Rough For you


I'll Be The One To Hold You When
The World Has Let you down
I'll Be The One to save you and
Turn You Around

I'll Be The One to Let You Know
How Much You Mean To Me
I'll Be The One To Tell You You're
The Only One I Need.


I'll Be The One to Miss you If You
Ever Go Away
I'll Be The One Whoose Love will Grow
Old Through out Each Passing Day

You have always make me shine and smile everysingle day....

to only norman daniel i love you in a million ways....

A bloody spoil brat kid that is me.. I can simply be a timid lil girl.. who is afraid of the lighting... On friday night or shall i say early in the dawn.. ard 3+/4+ it was raining like madness.. Thunders and lightining.. hahakz a 19 years old was afraid of those... i was huggin and cling to hubbylove all the way... Yes im afraid of those and i was super cold on that morning.. till i have high fever.. was super pamper till to pull my own blanket i will ask him to do so... and he will tuck dem just for me.. aww.. super of him...
sun:
Eventhough i was running with high fever i still went for my tuition with shups at one fulleton.. was great there was numerous of things that i have to catch up back.. damn my maths getting lousy... lol.. hmm hubbylove was mad of me going and told me to stay home.. unwnted to make kakak and mom to nagged at me i force myself to go and big apologies to hubbylove... Back hm.. my temperature was up and down.. till i cant hold dem too... hubby came back and wanted to bring me to the hospital but i didnt want too.. such a waste of money.. so i waited till today to go to the doc... but night with me having fever i pity him so much i woke him up almost every hour... sorry sweetheart head super pain.. till he loses his patient and said.. he cant do anything as when he touched it, it will be super pain... and insisted me to go hospital but as usual rya will be super stubborn and didnt want to go... lol... hmm.. like he said yesterday... " i la your doctor, your nurse, your boyfriend and ur hubby and everything to you" aww... that is so sweet of him :P but yeah.. having fever throat infection headache its not a game.. i can make me hospitalise.. gosh... that is super serious...
Hmmm so after going to the doc me and hubbylove had lunch at banquet.. den head to Vista Point to accompany him to cut his hair... and head hm rest a lil while and i cooked early dinner for him and elder bro.. haha usual pasta.. today was creamy chicken penne... with rosemary honey glazed chicken... slurppp... :) practical cooked clean iron his uniform as though im his wife already its a routine for me already.. so nothing seem new to us.. :)

Hope to bring lil amber out soon.. miss that lil gerl... *smuackz*

Candy kisses?
More like hot tamales
Like the hottest of all chili peppers
Just as the oils that burn with their biochemical flame
Your kisses bring me alive
In flames
Until there is no flesh
No bone
Only the searing of my soul
You imprint yourself upon my heart
Burning through the layers until I am fully exposed
You touch my essence
With lips that roast
I am not on fire
I am fire
Let me burn

The bleak escape is fading,
This love I drive in me
Rapes the fruits I pick
From harvest nights of greed.

My love for you
Strips my seconds into flaws,
My pride reinforced
With the love that makes you sprawl.

I"ll pick you up from weak knees
My love for you will forever stay
Just afraid of other bruised martyrs
who are trapped on a oceans cay

Breathe my air while I breathe yours
Hold your hand while you hold mine
Together we"ll reap what we sow
In our front garden of heavens dine

Look into my owls eyes
While you make me fly
Look under us
While the oceans run by.

You my living purpose
We"ll make it through this
Let time takes its course
While I, a peasant... press you a kiss

My living title shoots to stars!
A king by his queen
A queen by her king
Living what once was a dream

Every moment im with, never a chance i want to let you go... cause being closer to you secure me and i always love being around you.. your warm hug.. sweet kisses always put me at ease... even during nights of sleep... thoses goodnight kiss those warmth melting hugs of yours always put me to a deep sleep.. Never thought in my mind within seconds i would let you go... Those precious moment will always be remembered.. as you are the only person that i look upon each day and everytime im at home or out..... Loving you is the greatest moment... to be with u a life time is a magical life that i would have.....

Im totally obsessed by your love and you, yourself....

Ineedyou

Imissyou

Iwithyou

Iloveyou

norman daniel........

His Mine and Mine only mine :P


The bonds that tied us... :)


kissing the smoker boy


wondering?


Yes! smoke and smoke


My star.... NORMAN DANIEL


sweetest love


Yummylicious dessert


we are always standing strong :)


slurpppp...


wannabe but cannot make it... lol


Look at his eyebrows... nice?


*Greeky*


Wonders.


Kiss like theres no tmrw


simple monday looks


Dancing or just excited to eat... :P

Showing off? or simply waitng for the bill :)



can i dance like i used too


Guess my age.. :P

Been a few days i last update my blog... hmm.. firstly on the weekend was great the birthday celebration on fyza birthday was cute.. can i call it as bumble bee theme.. haha most dress in yellow and black.. like super cute... :P after the party me idah and hubbylove went home by cab... and yes i was to lazy to take train.. so sorry idah never tell u my bad habit... hehe... but was a small world my bf seems to noe khaty and idah.... Anderson pri lol... hmm.. okok so when we reached home.. we decided to go club but nahh.. plain lazy.. so we went triple8 to have supper and grab couple of drinks that make me tipsy till the next day... :P hmm so yeah....

Sunday morning...
We had breakfast together the pancake tak jadi... and yesh had a full though... :P den pasta in the noon again... trust me my everyday food is not rice but pasta.. and he wont mind abt it.... hmmm cause he is loving it... our 5kg of rice can last us for months and months but nt pasta... hmm so after lunch we talked and chatted.... before we decided to go for dinner and dessert at town.. hehe.. was fun cause both suddenly have the urge to smoke back.. weird2.... but yea its not gonna be a habbit... so we had dinner at nana thai.. not a heavy one but a light 1.. cause im savings space for dessert hehe.... so after dinner.. we walk ard check some shoes some clothes to think of this pay day... hehe... so we had dessert at NYDC.. and yes we had NYDC celebration which is superb... die die must try... super nice.. the chocolate and nougat ice creamm slurrppp yummy.. den we slack a lil.... before we head home... but before that we had our lovely supper again... which its is KFC Zinger... wow... nice.. im full to the max that day... and yes hubbylove went back to camp as early at 5.15.... so hehe. thanks to me... :)

yesterday school was super draggy to many information to catch why do i always fall sick.. gosh... ppl thought im strong but my body is actually weak... very weak... hmm.. so yeah... catch up like mad... and den came back home at 8.. gosh... need to trans something to mom and sis.. i was like running around... hmm den came hubby home help me with the chores at home.. gosh he such a sweet man.. sweep and mop the house... :P eventhough he was super tired.. and today im gonna clean my room.. and tmrw school.... and hubby gonna be at home first... :P

here are the pictures



before lunch pics

all change to get ready the party

Hungry monsters.. hehe

dessert first?

the the actual lunch ;P

*WHEN NIGHTS COMES*

First and formost... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET GF! NUR HAFIZAH


Who just turn 21.. wahhh fyza... 21 sey... :) freedom sweety... u have the key of freedom... even can become my withness in anything ahaha ;)



secondly..
I feel so weak.. weak to the max... all i need is hubbylove here.. i do things like super slow... gosh... even want to wash the laundry i feel exhausted.... it is almost 10.. wonder where is he now.. those medicine really make me weak and not to think of those rash that i have... okok no matter wad i have to fight all those and be present to my dearest GF! party tmrw... eventhough i cant stay late.. but promise will be dere early.. :)

last but not least... poem for him...

The sweetest breath I've ever felt,
Whispers on my cheek,
The faint perfume of life in bloom,
Begs me not to speak.

Little child of the sun,
I love to watch you sleep,
My tiny star, it's so bizarre,
So happy, yet I weep.

A single tear, so full of hope,
I'll do my very best,
To keep you warm, through sun or storm,
No matter what the quest.

Sleeping child, melting heart,
My angel here on earth,
I'll always show and hope you know,
To me, how much you're worth.


I love you NORMAN DANIEL!

i was proud of my hubbylove as he was really patience to entertain all my nonsense... gosh.. how pamper i cud be if im sick.. even put the cream myself i cant be bothered... but truely love him eventhough he was strict on me but i noe he love me too... :) countless door knock countless msg.. and lack of sleep he still able to manage it all and call mama in indo too.... abt my condition.. gosh... :) mom and dad was really glad that he was always here to take care of me... :) today he is already back to work.. haiya but cant wait for later in the evening.... and i miss my bitches in school.... yeok, karen bitch.. and lil fadzzyyy.... gosh they always make me laugh my ass out everytime we met... haiyahh.... i wish i could go to school.... but he wont let me till im full recover..... but hope i could start it next week....

Here are some random picture that was took on adiq digicam from mom and dad anniversary which like few mths back and 2/3 weeks ago for my cousin abg lolo nikah day (:


This is what happen to my twin bro if they are bored at hm

The undefeated sibz

mom and dad

we become madness if we meet.. :P

My cousin lolo.. he look so nervous


Im wearing tudung lol.. me mom and lil ANIS ARIANA


When cousin meet we became camwhore freak hehe


he was to scared...


This lil boy have huge eyes.. and very cute


Ian Hidayat...

I tripped upon a rock of gray,
then struck my head upon that stone
where I blacked out there all alone.
A dream soon took me to a place,
a crisp clear vision of your face,
your brown eyes shined their loving glow,
your black hair was let to flow
upon bare shoulders naturally,
as it cascaded down on me.
You placed a soft hand to my face,
which caused my heart to pound and race.
You brought your breath so close to mine,
then whispered only one small line.
You said... "I Love You.. yes I do,
I'll always be here just for you".
That forced my dreaming eyes to tear,
for suddenly I had no fear.
No fear of ever losing you,
the one I've searched for my life through.
The one so lovely, warm, and kind,
the one I thought I'd never find.
I tried to force my lips to move,
to say the words so I could prove,
that all held feelings deep inside,
are feelings that I cannot hide.
But words don't come so easily,
while deep within a dream you see,
although I tried so desperately
to tell you what you mean to me.
I failed for I just could not talk,
that darned old stupid blackened rock!
Then suddenly as I came to,
a real world ended dreams of you,
as birds were singing up above,
to wake me from this dream of love.
So there I was, standing tall,
my head still clearing from the fall,
oh please just let me fall again,
return me back to where I'd been!
Back to you within that dream,
as crazy as that just may seem.
Then suddenly I realized,
and thought of you as I surmised,
that I don't need a dream to see...
I have you in reality!
Though haunting as it truly seems,
we all do need our "Field of Dreams"
They let our minds believe our hearts,
and tie us closer to the parts.
The parts which all too rarely seem...
are captured in a loving dream.