My heart stops a beat,
Every time our eyes meet.
It's you that I adore,
You're the one that I live for.

Your radiant smile
Your soft tender lips
The happiness glows,
From deep within.

Every day without end,
Every second I live,
That's the promise I'll make
And the chance I'll take.

There's eight billion people
In this ever populating world,
And all I really ask for,
Is the one and only you.


When you caress the harps of these feelings
you do not know your fingers
will dissolve in the threads
of all echoes to split.

When you dig in to the guitar of my feelings
you do not know
these scratches
will settle
through all the pages of love
you slit.

When you stab silence
in the white veil of papers
you do not know
the tip of your words
would crack open
the red ink of the wound
That your penknife transmit.

You tune your gashing cords
to the tone of your whim
and do not know
on the tongue of this song
you would wave
in to the million of hearts
that are bounding to beat.


Life will burst
in the asylum of your fantasy;
one spike
weaves thousands waves
on the pond
and one wave
is writing on the surface of all waters
and beyond:
This butterfly would perish
even from the gravity
of a tender tangency!


When my heart was broken
i was struggling to move on..
i thought i'd never find something
but you're there with me all along..

i tried to look around
hoping he might come back..
but you were there when i was down
and when my world was in black..

how could i thank you more
you've been my angel for years..
you loved even from before
you saved me from my fears..

i can't help but admit
i fell in love with you..
right now, i just sit
thinking of what to do..

but then you confessed
that you love me too..
how happy i am and said,
yes, i do love you..

so busy looking around,
finding for a perfect guy..
how strange it may sound
but he's right here by my side..

i thought he's so far
but i was too blind to see..
i could not ask for anything more
cause you already found me..

when those days i was out of my way you pulled back and make me like urs... eversince the day that i met you.. You never fails to make my day out.. You told how important my life is to you and you told me how much u really love me... and i was touched by all of that.. cause you have been taking good care of me real well hubby (:

Without realising that very single thing that i hid within myself will be notice... A stupidity of mine and self-centered of my feeling never think of others that will be hurt or sad cause of the things that i have done. Cause of a tiny lil thing that was spit out was known and i blame all on me.. Nevertheless that i would want to point the fingers back... What saddess me the most that he was hurt of my action... How can i be so selfish and not telling him the truth while he always have been truthful and not a glimpes that he want to play or hide somthing behind me.... I was touched by what he said i was touched when he said no matter what is gonna happen he still love me.. and Reason of him react that way cause he was to terrified that something might happen to me... and Futhermore im suffering for all sort of sickness... so he was afraid if anything would happen he is the person who will bare all responsiblities.... cause he is the only person that is very close to me... i was so touched i was so surprise when he said somthing like this... It really tell how much he really loves me... and never want to let me down in any sort of ways.... Truely only love him and not others but him... He even quit smoking cause of me.. how bad it could be to quit just within a blink of an eye without cutting down even.. and even worst he have been smoking like more den 3years.. haizz.. very bad impression that i gave him... Cause of that stupid mistake of mine and cause of the stupid mentality of mine this have to happen... I wont forget this day and what he said to me...

Blog and blog (:
Weekend night with babylove. Late night dinner at home.. Cook pasta (: i wonder why do i really adore him so much... i dun care abt anything apart from him... am i mad... gosh... He is so addictive for me... Its worst the a cocaine or heroine.. Ouh no.. Monthsary is coming and i didnt noe wad to get for the boy.. its always him who get me thing and buy my thing that i always need... arghh im damn shit if im nt workin.. i aint have any income of my own i cant even shop those thing i want for... How long can i always depending on him for all... yesh i noe they all want the best for me.. Study and attain the result which satisfy all... But trust me.. I aint gonna learn anything.. But more over im thnkful that i have his full support for everything... eventhough mom and dad is away he have been taken care of me so well... which im proud of him.. avoiding the unwanted is always is our dictionary how it is if theres no quarrel and misunderstanding... But nevertheless i want to blame all on him if we did have a massive one... But everymoment that i look in his eyes all the saddness and anger dissaper within the blink of an eyes.... I really do and do do always love this sweetest boy.... I never want to leave him in my life... Not even his side.... "Kerana setiap kali dia pergi ia seperti kehilangan dirinya. Tapi aku yakin cinta ini takkan pernah salah lagi. Tiada sesaat pun aku ingin menyakitimu. Memang tak selalu ada yang terbaik dari diri ini. Aku yakin dirimu hanya untukku."

Loving you tremendously (:
Kan ku katakan cinta pada dirimu...

Turning up the sound of the harmonic rain
Lowering the light of the gleaming sun
I danced along your shallow breeze
And tasted the moon from your ever-moving skin.

Waves played inside the bluest of images...
Sweetest rapture of the starlight night.
Sand sways against the calmness of a lover path
And still...
We dance in a bottle.

Finding comfort upon the elm
A perfect sunset sat behind the clouds,
holding a memory
Softly hidden amongst the chill
Wrapped tighter in a forest of cotton...
You breathe this breath.

Waves stayed inside the bluest of images
And still...
We kiss in a bottle.

wanting all is miracle but attaining something and achieving your love have been a challenge for me... so baby never in my life i want to leave you even a second... Here am i siting writing those poem for have been everything from the bottom of my heart... Earning you love have been a blessing to me.. (:
Loving you all and thru out of my life...

it been days i have not been blogging ouh gosh... been pretty busy with school.. didnt noe wat to join haha.. Soccer rockwall or dragon boat... can i take all.. haha no i cant... someone will chopped me to pieces instead... and lately also been spending more time with babylove.. yesh tremendously insane about him... even a second i could suffocate.. haha let me tell more about school... things in school getting better the bond between me and classmate doin good.. ( : but too bad people always mistaken me as chinese instead of malay do i need to be more tann so tat ppl wont mistaken haha.. guess so.. (: hmm randomly some of my classmates noe the old friends of mine who i lost contact haha.. cooL wad a pretty small singapore.. that shows who small we are... (: Yes today i had my tuition day at home as usual adib will be always late.. never in his life he will be early if he is its a miracle man... hahha... oppss... so yeah tuition tmrw i guess so.. (: hmm
today i want to cook specially for my babylove... pasta with chicken and prawn hahha he love its so much... but i cant think of cream sauce or tomato base.. let see how later.. haha... practically i want him to eat more veggie but he insist not hit his head... (:
hmmm i was bored this few days after school not blogging as im too shagg but den i create name for my future lil one.. haha i love to have babies... and i love babies with unique name..
but i always want to have 4 lil kids runnin ard in my future life.. haha i want to be a great mommy a mommy who wants the best in the kids. hahha wahhh so young think of the future hahaha... but i want to be educated mom.. so career family and life that i want to be all... (:
so this are the names (:
this is the most uniq name i could think of

• Quraisya Faiqa
• Qadriyya Faiha
• Qawee'Adeel Fakih
• Qanit'Adyan Fatih

• Elvira Darria'yana
• Elvina Danish'shira
• Elfie Danish'risay
• Elfis Daryan'riyad

Sweet dream sleep tighy sweetheart
Here laying with you
All my sleepless night seems the oppsite
Glad was with you and spend the glorious night
Never run away for the sweet little dreams
Look i have all it take have to be...
Those lips of your is always a memorial kissable for me
Those glorious shimmering eyes of your
Always strike me
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Terbuka pintu hatiku
Ia terbuka hanya untukmu
Kini kau datang membawa cahaya
Berjuta warna pelagi di dalam hati
Serjenak luluh berganti yang pergi
Cahaya yang kau memberi sungguh suci
Dengarlah matahariku
Dengarlah suara hati yang berkata-kata
Ku terdiam sepi bila kau memberi semua kata cinta
Dengar la matahariku

We lie beneath same sky
but in different parts
of different worlds.

We breathe the same air
but yet yours
tastes so much cleaner.

We whisper dirty secrets
back and forth across the state,
and though i can hear you words
i would give anything to feel them.

We sing identical songs
but in opposite occtaves
with other choir members.

We sleep beneath the same stars
as the night passes us by
but next to no one else
would i ever want to lay.

Every time I see your eyes,
my heart skips a beat.
When you laugh at what I say,
my body fills with heat.
Waiting for the taste of your love
Against my lips
I open my eyes wide
Accepting all from my soul mate
Relaxed, slow breaths over come me
We take our time, making it last
Through the night
Over and over again
We stretched, relax, and smile
Preparing for the next round
The heat, the tension, the climax
The release
We take a break
Laid back and grin, think about the
same thing.
I wonder what we'll talk about tomorrow night??!!



Missing the babylove so badly...
I cant be hiding all my feelings again....
Not seeing him over the weekend made me sadd.. :(
But then i cant be selfish enough, that is part of his job... no matter wad it takes i have to go on and support him.... putting him to pressure never help in any sort of way...
But lying to him that im always fine it guilt me....
everyside that i look too i alway sees his shadows...
Ouh no....
I just cant help it....
miss him so much... till tuesday that im suppose to see him again.. :(

Anticipation is killing me tonight
tomoros future has been told
no need for a gypsy's crystal ball
i will rise or i will fall
you love me as your girl
or do you love me as a friend?
i cant sleep, it would be torture
knowing my life will start or end

The moon light glistens through my window
reminding me of those ambitious eyes
the ones that wont give up
they give me butterflys
experiencing such a wonderful sensation
when you are around
that must be what heavens like
please dont make it fake

The stars twinkle in the sky
as paranoia starts
freezing to a halt
knowing that its my fault
thinking you may hate me
your face could be a disquise
or am i just mesmorised

Hurting you would be the last thing
loving you is my piority
the stars, the moon the light and the sun
will be always shinning and rayying
having you in heart
is always a wish that is granted
Hubby love,
the only one that i could
expression my love too...
Haiving you to be apart of my life
I can never forgo....
I will do the best
just for you
and never want to see you mad at me anymore... (:
I truely and really love u hubbylove~
nothing could ever change it again......

Every second,
Your Always On My Mind..
I Miss You So Much...
I Wish...I Could Be With You Every second...
I Don't Want To Leave Your Side...
When You Need Me I'll Be Here...
Standing Watching Your Every move...
If You're Alone..Don't Worry I'm Here
If You're Sad..I'm Here To Cheer You Up...
If You're Hurt.. Let Me Be The One To Heal It.
If You Cry..Heres My Shoulder.

When I First Hold Your Hand,
It Was So Warm And Sweet...
Now The Memories Of Holding Your Hand,
Still In My Mind...

When I First Hug You,
It's Like Hugging A Soft Toy Bear..
But Your Different Than Soft Toy Bear...
Your So Warm, Sweet And Soft.

Every times I See You,
My Heart Beats So Fast..
Every things That Make Me Angry Or Sad..
Suddenly Disappear Whenever I'm With You...



today wil post 3 entries...


Let me tell you how much this is
when I look into your eyes this is what I see
I see a summers day breezey winds
and in that wind is the place to be,

When I hold your hand
its like im growing beneath the sand
and after awhile I start to grow weak
its usually when your gone for more than a week,

Love is something you give
and you gave me the perfect present
ill tie it up and stick it close to my heart
we'll never grow further apart,

When you give me those kisses
its like I know the summers hot hisses
because I am stunned to know that its you and me
that everyone pretends to be,

When I grasp you in my arms
im holding on to sun and its beautiful charms
because your gorgeous eyes seem to shine
shine so bright my eyes they seem to blind,

So let me tell you right here and now
that our love is something people ask how
and I tell them no sense things like this and such
but mostly I tell them I love you this much.

You seem so far away
But,
You linger in my dreams
Your every touch I feel
your every kiss I hold onto
We walk hand in hand in the labyrinth of thoughts and dreams
I see u there
But ,
I know your just a thought of what might be there dreams from now
I wake up to see no you,
No kiss,
No touch.
We will see each other soon .
But, for now you will be a Dream Within A Dream.

babylove day by day i really appreciate all your love you gave and never want to hurt you or disobey you sweetheart.... loving you is the best.. and having a placement in your heart is the greatest thing in the planet that i ever wanted (:

Each day is a new beginning
We do not know where it going to end
What if there is no tomorrow
Just today
How could I express?
How could I tell you?
That loving you
Even without your existence
Makes my world hope
Hope that love grow
Love last
It is just a trial
Trial to overcome with
Loving you each day
Makes my life complete
Distance is not been a hindrance
Communication might lost
Perhaps in a minute, hour/s or day/s
But still loving you is still the same
Because loving you is different
It really makes me wonder why
But loving you is an answer
To brightened up my life
To cherish all
To appreciate little things
To thanks those hurts and pains
Because loving you
Make my life momentous
Loving you
Is a new beginning
New discovery
New task to take with
It takes a lot of risks
But loving you
Loving you is great
I am a piece before
An ordinary piece
Now I am a silhouette
A beautiful silhouette
Made out of Love


eventhough now we seldom have time for each other that will never make me change my feeling for u.. but in tend to get deeper each and everytime a away from you... gosh babylove.. the world could turn upside down without you here with me... damn it.. i just feel weird when school start and you have ur operation thingy going on... argghhh tis is madness... But loving you have been the greastest things i ever wanted apart from my airmax... (: sweetlove of mine is always the sweetest thing in my life and its u baby..... miss u like hell... tmrw im gonna meet u and kiss u like theres no tmrw.... *grinz*


Loving u always and always remain in my heart

i miss my babylove so badly... its only 2 days im like missing him like hell... gosh... practically over the weekend i was busy with cousins weddings and spending time with him... firstly sat... cousin wedding was great.. my twin bro get the gifts.. cool.. 1 is mini cuppycake the other 1 is pure ganache chocolate cake so yummylicious... cooL... sunday day out with baby till 10.. damn it been so long both of us went to town and shop.. due to my alteration in town i was glad that we spend most our time dere... (: since 1pm-10pm cool.. love love it been such such a long time... practically once i took my skirt.. babylove brought me for lunch at swensen... and yes i love him so much as i have my dessert after that... (: thank you so much baby... den after lunch we went to spotlight as we want to get the friendship band string.. haha and yesh we pick purple colour and white.. so after that i have no intension to shop.. but he insisted.. (: so he brought me to flash and splash to get my volcom belt which is nt dere at all.. its out of stock sobbxx.. so he told me to pick other things... but i dun want him to waste so much money on me... so i saw sales at flesh imp so went there to shop.. met claudia... and she told me there is promo goin on that buy i female things and 1 male things cost 35.... so as usual i grabbed my dress and force him to get a top too.. so both of us went out the shop with somthing and i dun feel weird.. so baby thanks for the shoppin day too (:
monday was a school day damn it.. first day like so many minah but f it i kick my butt to school to finish the nitec cert and get my ass to poly.... planned alot of thing ahead liao.. and yes this time i want to get that placing.. and baby was working 14 hrs shift there we go again not meeting each other and in which today we suppose to meet but planned was mixed up... like hell yeah pity him he travelled all the way to wdls and im nt hm yet due to dad want to get his luggages.. damn it.. i feel so bad and inhuman by treating him that way... arghhh i cried otw to buy dads luggages... i told dad to drop me so i can meet him but they insist me following them... shitto... so i was teary while walkin... i kept myself cool and like blame it on me.. damn it....
tmrw i end skul at 5 and im so gonna meet him straight after skul... cant help it that i miss him so muchhh....

No doubt that im missing him so much... I do not know if tmrw if we could be able to meet as tmrw both have different plans... haiyah... meeting his uncle while i have my cousin solemnasation at Al Khair.. aduuhhh worst come to worst i gotta meet him on sunday lorr... haiyah sunday is the last time i spend the whole time with him as monday school start liao damn shittt... why does it have to start so early im scared im totally am scared... made up my mind to wear my nike airmax and bring my armani bag... hahah like fcukin rich brat.. lol but nahh i need a proper school bag... i dun like to go skul with the cute tiny bag.. just dun understand how.. no offence to the other who bring cute tiny bag to school.. (: btw today went to lucky plaza to send my skirt for alternation trust me i never like to go skul with short skirt.. went to alter the width of it hahaha... im so rugged bitch.. damn... haiyah practically one of my bf have gone to NS pity him... hope he is doing alright there... (: hmm im sure it is so emotional to they fam and my lovely gfs... and hope she is doin alright.... pop is real quick ayte.. (: seeing my gf bf going for ns is like so sad.. but i never exprience it before... gosh... practically all i wish that my bf finish his soon real soon in mths to come.. lol..

today me mom and dad was like talking about my future.. gosh they wanna send me to overseas studies but i gotta get married first with him (; heheh all cause they said that wait for my elder bro and sis to get married is damn long.. damn it.. i dun want to get for them things.... haiyo... but trust me i really love babylove like mad... even like he doesnt come home for a day makes me worried and miss him like hell... damn it... what have gotten in me... never so madly in love like this before... gosh... i can never sleep whenever he is nt ard me... i can never feel secure with he is nt here with me... And i dun feel like club when he is nt ard... i feel so weird... even day outing wif gf without him already i find it weird.. its nt that i find it weird with the gfs and bfs but i feel weird without him by myside... as i used to have him all the time when i need him now due to the busy working hours i rarely have that anymore... can this end soon please...
alright im having terrible headache which i dunnoe why bet im gonna sleep now....




ps iloveyou babylove

If I could I would dress in silver and gold
Clothe myself in the finest of satins and silks
So that I sparkle and shine above all others
For that thou dost deserve and so much more

I must make sure I am worthy of such a love
But now a confession to thee I must make
For I truly wonder what he can see in me
I am positive that I am unworthy of his love

For I am but a simple and mortal woman
With failings far too numerous to mention
Thus at his manly feet I kneel in adoration
As upon the brilliance of his face I gaze

Neither do I deserve his loving devotion
Yes, it is true I love this man so dearly
With all my pounding heart and soul
There are times I fear he'll come to realise

That this love I have to offer him is not enough,
For I know all too well he deserves far more
Yet all I give is all I have, there is no more to give
I love this amazing man with all my being

While in dread I pray he will not reject me
I hope that one day he'll ask that question of me
With his hand in mine I will say the words
That will bind our hearts eternally together

PS i love you babylove.....

practically the boy went back to camp already hope he have a great night today (: ... im super bored now.. no one to tease no one to joke with and no one to pick a fight with hehehe (; very very mean gf am i... hehe
Okie mom, dad and sis is at home so they will be doing their own things while i do my own things.. cool huh... stay under 1 roof but den we do diff things never have the family quality..... (:
Practically pretty boy is taking his bike out soon... and im scared that he will be more degil.... haizz.. hope he keep to his promise that he promise me... (:
haiz im counting down days before school starts aduhhh.. takut giler sey.... mcm bdk pri 1.. hhehehe....
first day gonna meet my cousin afiq to go to school together.. as i do not noe most of the place.. please guide me.. i dun want to get bully in school.. and as promise to bf i will behave in school and never create trouble and kick my ass to school... at any point of time if i do nonesense in that school he so gonna withdraw myself from there... but trust me with the Nitec cert and O level preparation for next things gonna be massive.. pity that pretty boy... haizz... im not workin but the school load like hell yeah... :(
when school reopen i bet i hae no time to even update my blog... will be busy like mad.. btw im still soul searching for GFs birthday gifts... haiyoo... so many things in mind to get but still i dunnoe what to get for her... (:

okie will update more later as i want to go ebay (:

The ray of light
The shinning star up in the sky
The joy of all excitment
The smile on the sad face
The laughter of happiness
The mr sweetheart that stole my heart
The man that would make me happy thru out
The guy that called me "baby"
The babylove that i want to be with all my life (:

Totally miss the babylove so much... I just hate to be separate from him... and i can never sleep without him ard me... and i cant sleep without those kisses and hugs... Im gonna start school soon and i cant afford to be like this all the time... haiyoo really bad... but thru this few month i learn more about what love is and stuff.. its more like we share thing rather den 1 side party thingy... but to be truthful he is different from what i know.. and he is love is extraordinary... which i like... (;

Baby i love u so much....

Thnks to my babylove and now im obessed with metal mulisha clothes.. thanks eh baby... and now im craving for the branded things too.. goshh.. this must stop if not im gonna die... die of starvation to get those things... aiyoo.. so rabak...
cant wait for 040608... haha planned to get something and do something for him.. hehehe (: not telling the blog as he always love to read this blog as most of the poem that i wrote is for him and only him... love love him... practically mom is flyin real soon back to square.. where me and bf at hm all the tym.. but nt to worry school gonna start.. damn... my days with him like hrs from now onward.. damn....
hmm okie here is the things that i feel like wanna get... gosh is super hardcore nice and gorgeous la...

The sweater front

back



The cap super cooL



The sweet lil tank top



haha im gonna save and get it.. damn..

here is other stuff that i want to get for myself
haiyo im become more like a shopperholic girl already... tsk tsk.. tis real bad


Yes GUCCI shade like i always wanted...

okie having some problem with this damn blogger... shitt
here are the previous post that have error on it...

09/04/08


Night of love
that i always remember
The days
that i always see you beside
The morning
that we will wake up
and eat.
You stole
you stole my heart and make me melt
A person who cherish me
and make me smile when i cry.
Im strong because you always guiding me
It doesnt matter to you how tired you are
But you have been always be by myside
I will never let you down
and never give up on any obstacle.
Cause u mean a whole world to me...
(:

love, love my babylove.




07/04/08


Sat:
Firstly i have tuition at 4 which adib was late.. he came at 5 instead.. hahaha my tuition teacher jus love online shopping.. damn i got only 6 mth before O's freakin stress all night long been studyin maths like hell.. wanting to memorise all the formulae... gosh..
After tuition i force dad to send me to meet GFs n Bfs.. finally all of us can meet... lookin forward for the next 1 soon ayte gerls.. hhmm.. suppose to meet at 730 but i was late i reached at 8.. den we proceed to the game.. hahha im like stupid dunno how to play bowling lol.. hahha but cool my gfs came with the bfs.. like sweet couple overall while mine was busy on shifts... hahhaha nvm gfs one fine day will manage to intro him to u ayte.. (:
After the game all of us went separate ways... Fyza,din and shahid went to al azhar... to eat the naan.. (:
while me idah and nawer head home.. yeshh we managed to talk and catch things up... (: next shall we go karaoke like idah suggest? hehehe



Fyza doing her thing or more likely posing (:


Nawer the pro bowler


Idah the Striker girl


Me.. I dunno wad i was doin first was okie the next im goin to the "longkang"


The Couples and me... :(


My BFs and GFs *how i wish my babylove was here too*


Gfs ily




today fyza just told me and idah abt her 21st birthday.. CooL a grand event whooo.. and the theme is red and yellow wah like fire u noe... hehhehe
so i cant decide my mind on what to buy... its nxt mth but still i wanna get sometimes sweet...
either wearin a dress or a skirt and a top... ehehhe
but firstly need to be proper as her family is gonna be there too.. so i cant possibly wear a short and tank top or a mini dress
so i tink of this but wil wear cardigan on it









just love these dress wish i have all the cash and will shop at victoria secret.. damn the things are super nice

Written on: 03:47 ♥

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
And when you left, you kissed my lips
my cheek my forehead
You told me you would never, ever forget
These romance

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannt sleep at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
If you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Endlessly the love you gave was strong
too strong
That you always make me happy thru my life
My dreams was to built a castle of love
and romance with you
Never wanting you to leave me alone
in the dark and never potray myself

Just hope all this while
the love i give you is great
If not i will improve to better
more than you know
Never want to let you down
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I always want to see you smiling thru you days.....

The only man i heart so much is Norman Daniel.....
Love you so much...
Im so crazy in love in you
its jus another drug for me...
(:

Im super bored and im having sleepless night when he is nt around me..
Why does this always happen to me everytime he is back to this dorm....
haizz he will be snoring like he used to and im still blogging
I got to change habit real soon as im left with a week before school starts
and i have to report at 9 argghhhh!!!!!!
Practically im starting to miss him already
haiz.. now i know how strong the love for him is
goshhh....
Btw since i cant sleep fika syg gave me this picnik.com
to edit my pictures is kinda fun though
but i still need my photoshop...
hmm...
btw im looking forward this sat as im goin out with the GFs and BFs
but sadly bf cant tag along as he got to work... haizz.. im sooo sooo missing u already u noe sweetheart
i can never stop saying this till i meet u again arhhhggggg!!!!!!!!!
fine wadever...
practically nan was online and i chatted with the Gf dee..
kinda great girl indeed.. heheh
sweet like a marshmellow like nan always describe her hehe...
glad u both are back.. (:
okie let shorten this crap and here are my creation



When the very first mth with him
Second time bringing amby out and they are my precious
On Siti Zulaikha and Wan Hafiz Zulfakar engagement

I feel SO



FATTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ARGGGHHHHHHHH



SCHOOL STARTING SOON



AND IM SO GONNA MISS HIMMMMM MY BABYLOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



NO!!!!!!!!!!!

I found myself today
I found myself and ran away
But something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight
I wont give up
neither i would breakdown
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me
I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To you and it wont be any fantasy
It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
I have always been believing to myself
And it matter how true you are
You've been closer to my heart each and every moment

Knowing that im only left with a week with him before school start..
Every minutes and every second is very precious to me...
As school start im gonna be rarely seeing him..
Firstly i do not know what time the school starts and ends
Secondly if he finish work at 10 am how am i suppose to meet....
gosh this is killing...
I really gonna miss him alot..
Btw today mom cook he all time fav dish
ASAM PEDAS yes apart from ayam masak merah he love to eat asam pedas my mom cook.. lol
Btw yeah mom kept askin me where is he while he was at sembawang home...
is very leceh to tell mom....
haha
btw miss every bits and moment we share at home eversince mom was away
Gosh we are like used to it very single day... den now things change again..
haiyooo even worst if i start school already...
and hopefully his operation ends real real soon...
I just want it like the way its used to be.. if not i got to bare for 2mth 2 weeks.. starting from now... haizzz





hmmm btw here is the pic of me and floremae the other time when i was out with her at town....