Happy 8th monsary hubbylove~

There the hardship that we been thru.. We are still standing strong... :)
Eventhough i have not been that pretty much good gf.. have been over possive on certain but you made me believe in you.. which i know that all this while there will be no lies in us.... :)



These wounds of a broken heart are slowly healing-
each day the pain decreases; the blood quits oozing.
Ability to love again and see the light feels amazing-
the sad thoughts that once overpowered my decisions-
are quickly fading away; optimism is becoming visible.

It seems not too long ago I was hurting-
never believed I'd overcome this and move on.
I'm slowly realizing, things can be overcame-
time just has to pass so that things can happen.
I'm ready to love again, and give it another chance.

Yearning to be with another soul whom I admire-
desiring their touch and lips against mine softly.
Oh, how I want nothing more than to be with him-
so that he can fix up the wounds of my broken heart.
Give me your love; I'll give you the same in return.

Desperately awaiting that day that I fall for you-
everything to fit into place, and be the way I expected.
Time is passing before our eyes, why not act upon it.
Wash away all the stress I've encountered in my past-
make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.
Show me what love is like, tell me you love me.
You'll be mine, then I'll be yours. Love me forever.

I love you hubbylove and you will be always remain as what it is... :)

Shall i be the Personal Assistant of fakhrin band... helping them in all the paperwork since they are willing to pay.. hehe.. hmm but is hubby okie with it? im really looking forward to this kinda job.. the task is not that much but it just time management that is important handling 3 person and get their ass to gig jam and yada3 is not easy u noe.. i must know all of their schedule how cool is that haha... lol... okok.. fakhrin will elaborate more to me later at night.. hmm hopefully hubby is okie with this.. :)

practically lately things have been working out good with hubbylove.. :)

Boring sunday for me..
Nothing to do.. noone to go out with.. Usually my lil nipotē Emily will be here at home first thing in the morning... But sadly today she is not here as my brother is kinda tired so they are now at home resting.... How sad that could be.. usually that lil girl will just make my day.. Every morning i will start hearing her laughing while my parent is talking or teasing her.. Or at most she cried cause she is hungry and as usual i will feed her and make her milk and yada3.... As for bf today is the daddy's side weddings affair.. so yeah he probably busy there.. Eventhough we have major arugement yesterday but he still do care about me all the time... Eventhough when im sick all i need was his full attention to me.. But now i got to learn to be on my own... Yes im a bad gf i can say... Its sweet of him to wake up as early as 8 to buy me milk and bread but yet i didnt eat the bread.. Guess i'm really stubborn arent i... hmm so at 8plus im still complanning about the gastric pain... so he decided to call macd for me.. and surprisingly i cant finish my macmuffins how bad is that.. I ate like only 2/3 of the muffin and the rest i gave to him including the hashbrown.. i cant gobble all.. damn guess the old habit of me came back.. which is very very bad... It could lead me to appendix as the last time the doctor have warn me that i had a minor appendix and suppose to avoid it from making it worst... Yes, hubby didnt know about this... If he would ever know about this im surely be dead as he will get mad at me.. okie okie.. lets put all aside..

To hubbylove, i know i was such an arse to you yesterday i wasnt being myself and being that understanding gf that you used to know... Its my bad and im really sorry about yesterday... Guess i have moodswing when im sick.... but im glad that you have been always here for me.. eventhough we could spend the time like other couple do....


Hmm 5 more days will be the 8th monthsary with him.. damn time is real fast... adn i really have to change and wake to the world which is opened.. sadly im still not working so i do not know wad to make or get for him.... I really desprately need a job... sigh..

Nothing that i could wish for
A perfect simple life all i want it to be grant
Not more that just love which i would want
But joy and laughter of the love ones that will make me shine
Hereby i sitting everysingle day updating post
Never reveal the true feelings in me
Its just me or it that could be said
Snuggles with tears to sleep
Wanting the broken parts to be fix
Waiting for him to come home
And those precious hours that i have to spend wisely
Its not that i'm whinning but that what i felt in me
Sometimes i need to be selfish i guess
Nothing more which i ask for just want to spend like the other couples,.
I know what you doing is all for me
But i just need some days that i could spend wth you.

I never show to you how much i really do love you.. i never show u how much i cared... but deep inside me im all yours hubbylove... Not a single bit i will take my eyes off you.. without realising its already coming to 8mth.. damn time flies so fast.. its as though i met u only a mth ago... thru the tears, joy, laughter and all.. i never regret to have you apart of my life as you always been a joy and wonderful gift to me.. eversince the day one i really enjoy everysingle bit of you... enough u alone to make my day... But all of it is like a dream come true.. my dream man is already here with me... im looking forward to the 1 year which officially falls on the new year.. and i want to show them who have been looking down on us that we made it.. I never choose a person if they have ride or money.. its matter how u would take care of me and protect me all this while... knowing that i have my man to protect me all this awhile... and yeahh i really do love him... hmm.. practically i miss all my mates.. gosh been so long last we wnt out together.. grr.. hope hope to meet them soon...

to hubbylove.. i love you.. and not a sec it stop.. :D

Hmm weekend was great.. again i attended cousin wedding sat and sun.. haha.. Too many weddings that have to be attended lol... when is my turn haha.. gosh.. so mentel.. okok.. practically weekend was spend with my family.... and yeah sadly this time hubbylove have to go to work with no time off or leave... hmm... lets recap apart from sat and sun...

On friday went to meet idah as she have interview.. den after which we went to the poly as i have massive period cramps and asthma.. how sweet she is.. den after which hubbylove called and talk to idah.. yeshh... he is very caring even when he cant make it.. he make sure the person who send me have to really take care of me.. thnks to idah and sweet of her.. hehe.. but when we go the poly was closed for lunch break and gotta return at 1.30 so we eat at tea tarik to have our branch... den after lunch we headed back to the polyclinic.. and yes.. while waiting for the doctor.. i have been surprise by hubbylove he drop by just to accompany me to see the doc.. hehe as usual i dun really talk much to the doctor since i was young hehe... hmmm okok.. den he gotta rush home as to help kak sita for his niece birthday Syafiqah.... so me and idah headed home... :D
practically my weekdays doesnt really spend that much arh.. so usual i will spend time at home just to search for jobs...
btw the weddings pic from cuz wedd will be up soonn... :D

The partners in crime :D


Me mom and lil titbits :D


THE 080808 COUPLE :D



So gorgeous in pink :D


The antaran to the guys side


Bloopers hehe


The arabic style


Cousin in law, Aunties and cousin :D

The arrival of abg Yazid






Nikah time


She approves :D


The sealed Bliss




Me dad and the couple


Lil boy with the brides



cutting the day time :D

GEMINI MAN

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high
forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a
very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and
very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start
talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special
talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic.
He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call
"Hyperactive".

He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if
he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on
paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent
a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean.
He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love
him.

He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts
he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make
sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He
get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so
soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.

If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you
will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is
a duty, or is it because he wants to?

He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see
a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other
Zodiac.

He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could
hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and
necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always
find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he
wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He
can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a
real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.

He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy
about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate
satisfaction.

Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in
love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he
feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust
yourself if you love him.

Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves
you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he
could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell
you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he
won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will
take you out again and forget what just happened.

You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes
will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and
dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his
emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he
crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and
patient.

He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent
times solving this puzzle.



SCORPIO WOMAN

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell
right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays
herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her
character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and
deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is
borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules.
She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a
spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good
follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power
and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will
only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all
the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they
knowing it.

If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then
you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can
understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which
could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her
X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going
to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she
will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she
will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you
can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can
earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A
man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She
likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she
start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a
degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there
are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If
she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep
all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this
matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has
good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself
together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be
no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important
than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some
Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this
woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house.
It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about
this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a
temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it.
If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair
in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to
accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you
are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations,
and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too
proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so
if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more
money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a
feeling of being a "Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When
you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you
have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to
go 5-10 minutes early.



everything seems to be true u noe

Been a busy week... trust me.. 080808 was cousin Siti Nurbaizurah Wedds... gosh i have headache.. on sat didnt go anywhere... just lazyin around...sadly i didnt catch any firework or anything.. sadd ryte yeah.. as hubby is busy working... i cant possibly tink of myself ryte.. so i let him work... den on 10aug was my cuz sanding day yea we arrive there at 12 i guess.. the bride is so pretty but sadly we never take pictures with her... sigghh... hubbylove came too.. but i didnt ride with him otw to jurong i came with dad while he is riding.. :D yeah with his bandage on his hand everyone tot my bf have a tattoo.. LOOK ppl he doesnt have a tattoo is hand was injuried.. gosh.. ppl always have this thought of him lol ... nvm den we stayed there till 4pm den off we go back home a rest a lil before heading to my bestie flore place as it was her birthday :D.... yesh we manage to get ourself a nap hehehe... when i was riding with him all of my cousin was looking at me.. okok i admit.. that im the only one who have bf is riding the rest are all with car... F it la.. im not a materialistic woman... whether he have bike or not.. i dun care.. even when he have bike its very rare for me to tell him like" eh baby can u fetch me errm can u send me errmmm can we go out at nite" no okie.. that bike which i agree on him riding cause of his transportation to go work and for workin purpose... not more that.... hmm okie enough of this... hmmm once i reach at flore place i finally manage to meet vic and the rest.. trust me i miss them so very much hehe.. okok we didnt stay there long as bf was shy as there is too many ppl... ouh yesh ppl my bf is not snob but he is a shy person he will take sometimes to adapt with ppl okie.. :D hmm after from her place he headed to sembawang as both of us like hungry hehe.. so we eat prata bommm slurrpp it is sweet and nice.. i loikee.. hhehehe
On monday was his off day and yeah he stayed home apart from goin to cwp as he wanted to eat fishball soup... this is the first time ever i saw him drinkin the soup till it finish.... "is my cooked food nice hubby"? hehe hmm den he went home at night... soobbxx.. okok i did quarrel with him somehow or rather... as normal naz and her self-centered life.. gosh i really need to change that habbit... damn i hate those... so yeah den we solve the matters...
Today trust me i woke up on the wrongside of the bed and all the ppl who called me all been scolded be it whoever including my hubbylove..... so yeah im suppose to go for interview instead i postpone them to tmrw at 10... hehe.. hmm so at 130 went to ite simei to do my attration thingy to quit sch.. damn i hate that teacher its just a bloody letter and i have yet to come down and sigh den done... lol... wad a waste of my time... so yeah den after that we head to town.... to cityhall actually we planned to eat at marina square.. but i wanted to try the popey... hmm as for us it wasnt up to our taste bud we prefer KFC better... hmm was so upset... but its okie.. no harm trying... den after that we headed to heereen to have dessert.. sluurrrpp it was my all time fav. NYDC celebration hehehe... so yeah den we rushed home as its gonna rain.... but too bad when we reach at yishun the rain starts pouring like mad already.... damn i was super cold and freezing... so we stop over for awhile.. after awhile we rushed home as i was having asthma.. :( but things is okie after inhaler and stuff.. but first thing first i gotta runn and hide from mom as we were caught in the rain hehe... me and hubbylove sneak in and quickly change out heheh... so yeah that all for now will upload cuz wedding pic soon :D

Rain falls down like your alibi
Thought you held the stars in the sky
Till I found your love
Was a lie

And I lost the life
And the days with you my love

All your lines I cannot erase
Pull your fingers from round my brain
But you put this hate
In my eyes

But I love the scars
Of the days with you my love

Till I found your love
Was a lie

But I love the scars
Of the days with you my love





Every second I spend away from you,
I miss you more and more,
You are my life, the fire to my soul,
Without you I am nothing.

You seem too good to be true,
The way you are always there when I need someone to talk to,
How you always know what to say to make me smile,
And the way you hold me so I always feel safe.

Your touch is so gentle and yet so strong,
That when you put your arms around me all my troubles disappear,
I never thought I would have you, never thought I deserved you,
But now I have you, I never want to let you go.

I know I can annoy you at times and I can be a winger,
But I love you and you mean everything to me,
I never want to lose you,
Because without you I am nothing.

Been days i last update... it close to aweek... but nothing new in my life.. just tat im really busy searching for jobs.. and i hopeful get the job that i went at river valley :D... Not mentioning... Hubbylove took out this ride... Pretty much i can say im afraid of riding somehow or rather.... Not cause of me never ride before... but i ever fall from the bike.... sadd... still in trauma... lol.. hmm but yea.. when the first day he took the bike out.. he took me for breakfast as early as 5... den today he send and fetch me from the interview place.. den off for breakfast at marina.. :D... slurrpp being succh a pain in the ass baby.. he always love to make me smile in any sort of ways... so after breakfast we went over to his crib to visit umi... den headed home... so we rest as we woke up as early as 7 today... its was so sweet of him to take off from station just to send me to river valley.. hmmm den at 4pm we went for late lunch as i was starving but sadly the food was upset not really that nice... so yeah... den there he goes to work at canadian... so now im all alone at home while he go jb to pump petrol :D...


i know i was selfish toward yoy .. never ask neither know what u are doing... yes, is true that i was lack of attention from the family and expecting them from you.. but yeah neither i could blame you for the busy schedule as now i know that all this while you are working for me... but trust me i will never give up on u like other do... i noe i was on the losing point and can never understand ur busy schedule.. but i always trust and have faith in you.. yeah its hard for me to tell you everything... but trust me i will try to understand u even better and be strong like wad u wanted... :D hubbylove eventhought the misunderstanding i still love you and that will never change... being pressured tat im jobless and always stuck at home is sucks.. that is the reason of why im reacting.. btw abt the ride, i know you will never change for the ride as i noe the ride is for you to move about for work and stuff... i really appreciate it.. and i really do love u hubbylove.. i try my very best to learn how to strong and patience... :D